F Jason Whitaker

Filmmaking... web series... at the moment they are just ideas and dreams.

Would it be possible to produce a web series here with no money? I have a camera and some other gear. I need actors, crew, locations, etc.

I want to write and produce a web series but I am uncertain of the story and characters. I need to figure out what I want the web series to be about. It would be nice to have someone help me with the web series.

I have cameras and some other equipment. I need actors and crew. I want to write and produce, maybe direct, web series. I also want to be the lead actor some of the time. I also need locations and if the locations are not close to where I live then I would need transportation.

I hope to do some video soon, maybe this month, including a web series. I need to be a filmmaker. I mean that I need to do some filmmaking.

I wasted my time studying filmmaking. I wasted years of life studying filmmaking. What have I to show for those years of study? Nothing. I see it all of the time, people who have not studied filmmaking getting jobs in the industry, people with no experience getting work on movie and television sets. I am also in the worst state for filmmaking. I also have no transportation. Such a waste of time...

It's a new month. I need to focus on writing the web series. I hope to do more video in general. I am doing a daily vlog. I hope to do more in the future.

I do not know when I will write the web series, soon I hope...

I am going to write a web series. I am going to be the lead actor. I am going to produce this web series. I will do these things, somehow. I just don't know how at the moment...

I am trying to figure out what I will do today. I might stay home and work on my writing. I might go to a program at the library this evening. I need to write screenplays.

I want to do web series and other video content but finding actors and crew is going to be almost impossible here. It's also going to be difficult since I have no transportation. I hope to write a web series soon. I plan to write it for me to be the lead actor. I am hopeful about being able to produce it, somehow...

I have not done anything as far as writing for the web series. I think I need to figure out the story for the series and what characters will populate the series. I hope to have some writing done soon. I hope that I will be able to begin writing and producing web series soon. I know that I will need help producing... I need actors, crew and locations. It would also help if I had Final Cut or my Creative Suite renewed.

I hope to do some writing for the web series tonight and tomorrow.

I plan to make some videos with my past photography if I can get it to work since I have never used that feature on Youtube. I also plan to write today including the web series...

I am going to do more Vlogs. I have been doing a daily vlog. I am going to write a web series soon. I hope. I am tired. It's been a long day. Might start tomorrow...Maybe?!

I hope to do more as a filmmaker soon... I plan to write the web series in the near future...

Today I hope to begin writing the web series....

Starting this week I will focus more on my writing. I will write the web series. I will reach out to people about producing it...

Can I write a web series? Can I be the lead actor in this series? I so want to do both. I hope that I will focus this week on writing the series.

I plan to write a web series soon. I have made some notes about it. I plan the to be the lead actor.  I'm not sure if I will be able to produce it here. 

Today I thought some about the web series...

I am going to write a web series with me as the lead actor. I am hopeful that I will be able to produce it...

Currently the plan is to write a web series with me being the lead actor. Will I direct? maybe... I need crew. I need other actors.. and locations. I need help.

I'm thinking about writing a web series with me as the main character. I would like to have someone to help me to write and produce it. I would also need crew and other actors. I am hopeful.

I need to be a filmmaker. I need to write and direct. I hope that I will be able to start soon on something, anything....

What keeps me from doing more? What keeps me from writing and directing web series?  I hope that I will be able to move past these obstacles and move forward...

If only I were not living in the middle of nowhere. If only... I want to write and direct. I want to write for television. I want to do more than dream.

Do I have what it takes to write and direct a web series? Will it be possible to do so where I live? Would anyone want to watch it? I have so many questions and doubts about everything. I'm hopeful but I wonder if I will follow through with my dreams...

I do not have a plan. I do not have an idea for the series. I will continue to consider ideas for the series. I hope to have an idea soon.

Web series: How am I going to make this happen? I need to find an idea for the web series....

My goal is to write and direct a web series before the end of this year. I am hopeful. I am excited. I need to find actors.

I am excited about the idea of writing and producing a web series but I wonder if I will be able to find people interested in acting here and people interested in being crew here. I will need help if I am going to do this...

I have decided that I shall do a web series. I shall find actors and crew. I shall find locations. I will not give up. I will move forward with my life. I am going to be more focused and more organized. I may need to take some time to organize my possessions and organize my bedroom (which is also my home office) but I plan to focus on my career. So, I have been submitting to job openings for so long. Only a few interviews in years. Only one part time, temp, position with a non profit which was last year. I have decided: my career is: my writing, my photography, and my video which includes web series. I will treat these as a career. i will have hours to work on these each day. I now have a daily vlog. I need stuff to keep me going. Things to work on each day. Daily tasks to keep me focused.

Starting today I will post a daily vlog. I will utilize my iPhone 7 to do a daily video. I uploaded a test video this morning. I am going to do more video using my iPhone. I am excited about being more productive...

Friday... I have been meditating upon the idea of writing and producing a web series. I am excited by the idea. Not a specific idea for a series but the idea of a creating and producing a series. It will be a no budget production. I will use the equipment that I already own. I will use iMovie since my Adobe membership has expired and I do not have funds to renew. I will use locations that I can walk to since I have no transportation. I know that there are obstacles but I am determined...

Web Series: What will the series look like and how will I shoot it to look that way? I need to consider what it could look like... How many actors will be required? As few as possible. I think it will be possible to write and produce a web series. 12 episodes, about 5 minutes per episode.

Web series: I hope to begin working on a web series.... soon.

Today I am working on a submission to a contest. It's an editing contest using clips from a site and songs from another site. I can use up to a certain amount of video clips and so many songs for the project. It will not be easy since I no longer have Adobe Creative Suite. I will have to use iMovie. I may not win but I will make an effort...

I hope to write and produce a web series. I need to figure out the story but I am hopeful. I also need to consider locations when writing. Since I do not have transportation I will be limited to how far I can go to find locations. I need to find actors and crew. I will not need too many people but I will need a few. I could use help with the producing of the series but not sure where to find help.

Web series. I want to do a web series. Each episode would be very short, maybe five minutes long. Each season or series would be about twelve episodes long. Comedy or drama? I have not decided. When shall I begin? I have not decided. I need people to help with this but not sure how to find them here. I need actors and crew. I need locations close enough for me to walk to since I do not have transportation. I am hopeful...

I am reconsidering the idea of writing and producing a web series here. I will take some time to consider the characters and story. I hope to begin writing the series in the next few weeks. I need actors and crew. Not sure how of where I shall find them...

I think I would still be open to writing and producing a web series here. If I could find a couple of people interested in acting. I am available for filmmaking projects.

I am a filmmaker and I Need to work on being a filmmaker. I have cameras. I have lights. I need to do some filmmaking.

Photography. I October has been a good month in regards to my photography. I traveled to NYC. The photography there was great. I like d doing street photography. Central Park was a relaxing place to photograph. There was a wide variety of things to photograph in NYC. I did some video while in NYC and I am posting those videos on my Youtube. I went to the fair here and it was nice to do photography at a small fair. I  did some farm animal photography and some photography of the rides. It was a fun day. I have no plans to do any photography on or for Halloween. I may not do anymore photography this month. I need to do more video. I hope to do more video and photography. One idea is to have a photograph of the day and a photograph of the month on the main page of my photography website. I need to find ways to earn money from my photography. It would be great to have a steady flow of income from my photography and video.

Friday I have plans for the evening. Sunday I have plans for the evening. I do not have plans for Saturday...

I stand here and I think it would be great if I had enough money to do the things I want to do... otherwise I do not want to do anything...

I often think about the idea of not being single. It's not about sex, though sex would be awesome. I just do not want to do the hookup thing anymore. I really do not want to meet older guys just so they can do a certain thing to me (for me) though that feels great. I have hormones and I have desires but these desires go beyond that one physical aspect. I desire to find a guy that I can share life with, one that I can wake up to, one that I can cuddle with, a guy I can travel and camp with, a guy to be there for me and a guy I can be there for, and someone to love and be loved by... Is true love actually possible?

Halloween will be here soon. I have the stuff for a costume. Today I am uploading photos. The rest of this week I need to focus on writing. I need to focus on what is important.

I was the volunteer photographer for Pride. It was a long day. Tomorrow, what shall I do? I have no idea. Too tired to think about tomorrow...

I have plans this evening and tomorrow. It's not often that I do have plans. I have no transportation and I Live in the middle of nowhere where public transportation is taking an Uber. It was so nice visiting a city. I had a great time in NYC. I want to move there because there is work for me there but the cold weather is a concern. I have no idea what I am going to do but I am beginning to think things out as far as what I could do...

I know that I need to make more videos for Youtube as well as increase my subscriber base drastically so that I can earn money from my channel. I also need to utilize my websites more to create an income flow. I need income in general. I need to do more with my time. I need to be more focused and forget about all of the doubt...

I am cold. It's colder here. I need to take a shower and go return the RedBox rental. What else shall I do today? I have plans for Friday and Saturday. I need to focus on my writing, photography & video, and making money. I have ideas for what I could do but I have doubt about these ideas working. I need to get past the doubt.

I stand here wondering what I should do. I keep thinking of stuff I could do but I often doubt the outcome of those things... What now?

I have no idea what I'm doing. Most days I no longer want to do anything. I do want to do something, I have so much I want to do, but I am unable to do any of these things at the moment. I am alone. I have dreams and goals but no idea as to how to achieve them. Where would I want to live? NYC, Los Angeles, Ventura (CA), Ireland, London... So many places... I want to have a tiny house and travel the country. I know what I want to do but no idea how to plan to do these things...

What shall I do today? I need to think about it.  I have been more depressed since coming back from NYC. It's not easy going back to a rural area after visiting a city. I have not been to a city in years... Will anyone ever hire me? Why are companies not hiring me? 

Next weekend is Pride here. I am volunteering Saturday morning. I am also bringing my camera to do some photography...

Friday. Another day back from NYC.  I was somewhat nervous about traveling to NYC but I was wrong about what it would be like. I have been to cities before: Chicago and LA. I knew NY would be different. It was not bad. I loved being in NYC.  I would move there if I had the chance.

It's Thursday. It feels as though it should be Saturday...

I am going to a local state fair today. I miss being in NYC. I miss living in a city. Living in the middle of nowhere is so different from living in or even near a city. I would have to travel to Atlanta to visit the closest city to me. I would prefer to visit or move to NYC...

I am hopeful. Traveling to NYC made me realise that I want to live there...

My NYC trip was great. I have so many photos. I also have some video. I plan to add some of the photos to my website today....

The following is a portion of a short story I have written: I can hear the rain, on the roof, beating a constant rhythm that may only be in my head. It might be sunny outside or maybe it’s a cloud free starry night. I’m in this room, my bedroom, as I am most often these days. What else is there for me to do?  I stare at the blank walls. I would have posters but I cant decide between Star Wars and Star Trek. I know what  you’re thinking. I have to chose one of them, but do I really have to chose? Why should I chose when I can love both of these franchises? As you will notice, as if you have not already, I do not focus too well so I will jump from random thought to random thought. Did I have breakfast yet? I think I did but each day seems like an eternal “Groundhog Day” and I am stuck in my room on the same day. It’s not as if I cannot leave my room or this house. I chose not to leave the house or room except when I absolutely have to go somewhere like the store. I have a few fr...

Tomorrow at this time I will be in NYC. I have some ideas for places I want to go and photograph but I do not have a schedule since I do not know how my days will look. I know that I will arrive before the official hotel check in time but I hope that I will be able to leave my bag in my room and go exploring.  Saturday there will be a Food Network event. I have no idea what this will be. I am looking forward to visiting NYC. I will have photography and video from my trip posted on my site next week. 

I am excited about my trip Friday. But I know that I need to do more with my life. Being single is not bad but I do not think I want to remain single. I do not know how to meet people anymore. I have no transportation. I have nowhere to go to meet people my age except bars. I am not a fan of bars.  I want to have a career but I do not know how to make that happen. I have applied to so many jobs. I'm not interested in looking into other fields for my career because I do not have money to go back to school.  I live in the wrong state for what I went to school for, living in a rural state, and I do not have the resources to move to a better state. I do not want to be consumed with worry about my future. I have wasted too much time doing this. I would love to write for television. I doubt I will ever be a TV writer. I do not know how to get started. I have applied to writing programs but I doubt I am the type of person they are looking for. I have attempted to write and produce vi...

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I feel better compared to yesterday. I think I will take today to rest so that I will feel way better before my trip to NYC Friday.

I'm not a religious person in the way that some would consider religious. I have a faith and a set of beliefs. I am a Christian. I believe that the interpretation of scripture that so many people use is not accurate. I also believe that the majority of people claiming to live "according to these interpretations" ignore anything that is about themselves instead focusing on parts that were not accurately interpreted. They justify hate and discrimination with scripture taken out of context and scripture that was misinterpreted. I would like to have a place to worship. A place with people of similar beliefs. A place where the ages of the people are diverse. A place where I can meet other Christians. That place does not exist where I live. 

I write in my blogs each day. I have three blogs. all of them can be found on my website. I am tired so I am going to watch some Youtube and think about some stuff...

Saturday... I hope to continue to write and read more. I have some new books on my Kindle Fire. I hope to write and publish on Amazon. I also plan to do more video and photography...

Soon we shall say farewell to September and hello to October. I have most of my costume for Halloween. I will be in NYC from October 6 to October 8.

I have been fortunate to win sweepstakes and instant win games. The reason I win is because I enter sweepstakes and play instant win games everyday. I would like to win a house so that I would have a place to live. I want to take the day to think about my future and what I am going to do. I have often imagined that I would have a career, a job, and a house with a car in the garage, but it seems as though I will never get a job. Having a house would be great. I would love to have a tiny house so that I could travel the country. I have no idea what to do. I mean I have things I want to do but I am uncertain about how to make them into a career. I have self doubt. I think I've had it most of my life, but that's a long story that I do not share. What shall I do?

Wednesday. It's going to be a hot day. I have some plans for lunch. I have plans for Saturday. Thursday and Friday? have not figured those days out yet.

Busy day today. Panera Bread. Bi-Lo. Dollar Tree. A visit to my bank. Nothing special. Tomorrow I have plans for lunch.  Saturday I have plans for breakfast and after breakfast. Still nothing special, just the routine. I need a career. I need a place of my own. I need transportation. A tiny house and truck would be great for 2 of these.

If you want to know what I am doing in life or how I am feeling etc. then you should read my 3 daily blogs because I write about my daily life there. If it's not there or on my FB profile then it may not be something I want you to know. My age and other information is found on my FB profile so there is not need to ask me. I do not call anyone unless I have a need to call someone which I usually don't or I will contact you through social media. I still have FB even though there's not much reason to be on there except that I find out about sweepstakes, instant win games, and freebies on FB. I guess it is true that the older generations are now using FB more than my generation.  I post photos of most of what I win or receive in the mail in regards to packages on IG and FB etc. and I have plenty of photos of myself on social media so there's no need to ask me if I have photos. If you want nude or shirtless photos of me, not sure why anyone would want those, then please do n...

Sunday. It's time to begin planning for my weekend trip to NYC in October. The week after the trip I will also be out of town working on the movie that I worked on one day earlier this year. I am looking forward to my trip.

I am leaving soon for an event. I would not go but I spend most of my time home, in my room, so I need to go somewhere...

I have 4 coupons for free items on my Food Lion card. Tomorrow I have plans in the evening and there is something being held at the library. I have plans tomorrow but none today. I have stuff I would like to do but will I do them today?

Thursday. Saturday I am going to an Oktoberfest at a Lutheran congregation. Not sure why it is in September unless it is in September in Germany, maybe. I do not go anywhere. I stay home most of the time. There is not really anywhere to go. I do not have a car. I do not live near a city. The closest city to me, Atlanta, is too far. I live in a rural state, South Carolina. MOst of the people I know live elsewhere or they are very busy. Not that anyone cares about me...

I went to Pets Supplies Plus near me yesterday. I thought it went well until I took a better look at my receipt. I used 2 BOGO free coupons for wet cat food. The problem is that the total price of the item was not deducted from my order. I did not get one free when i bought one. I called the store but a person claiming to be the manager was rude and would not listen. This is a small chain store that I shop at several times a year. The prices, overall, are very high. The customer service is adequate at times but horrible in general. I would advise not to shop there. I contacted Amazon concerning the cover I ordered for the iPad I won. I ordered it over a week ago and as of yesterday it had not shipped. I was worried that something went wrong with my order and that it would never ship. The shipping of the order was expedited. It is suppose to arrive tomorrow. It states " Sold by  Fintie  and  Fulfilled by Amazon " on the page of the item I ordered. I'm curious as to why it ...

I try to consider all of my options, as limited as they are, and make decisions about my future but I really do not know what I will do. I am single. No career. I do not have my own place. I have no transportation. I have cats. I have not had an interview for a job in so long. I write and have submitted some but I'm uncertain if my writing will be bought by anyone. I go out and do photography but I do not make any money. I want to do more videos, maybe daily vlogs, but I don't know what to do them on.

I did some photography today. I have not gone out to do photography for weeks so it was about time... They will be on my site soon...

I look back upon the time spent going to school to study what I am passionate about. I think of those that are doing these things, people that did not go to school to learn about these things, and I think I wasted so much time. I think of people that are pursuing the things I have only dreamt about after having a career for years in other fields. I have not had a first career and people are looking for their second or third career. I have goals and plans. I do not know how to achieve these things...

Saturday. I have yet to have a first career or a full-time job. I have not had a BF or been on a date.  I have hope that things will improve this year. Maybe?

I do not feel like doing anything. I'm in this mood where I do not want to do anything. I need to focus on my writing, photography and video since submitting to job openings is a waste of time. I might do a daily vlog starting today, maybe...

I am hopeful. I have doubts but my hope and faith remain... My links for anyone that wants them: https://www.instagram.com/jason29171/ https://about.me/fjasonwhitaker http://filmmakerjasonwhit.wixsite.com/photo https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87 http://filmmakerjasonwhit.wixsite.com/writer   https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCuZxvV2KZgC8nkSHYtUoAkQ

I am on my own. I have no help. I will never be hired by anyone. I will have to do everything on my own, alone. I need to write and publish on Amazon and not post it on a site that anyone can access. I need to do more video and photography. I need to do video that will make people want to watch it and subscribe to my channel. I need to make a living somehow.

NYC trip is in October. The iPad I won (and iTunes gift card) are expected to arrive tomorrow. I need to focus on producing ore video content, more photography and writing (submitting) more often. I have somewhat of a plan but I need to focus. I need to come up with goals and how to achieve those goals...

Monday. I am looking forward to my NYC trip. I plan to do more video and photography beginning this week.

Sunday. New Week. Time to celebrate my progress and plan to do more. I am writing and submitting more often, slowly for now, but I plan to write and submit more often. I have books from the library which has information about places to submit my writing. I hope to make a living from my writing. I might consider the idea of a daily vlog in addition to my blogs. I might consider doing more video and photography. I plan to do video and photography during my NYC trip next month...

I am excited about my trip to NYC next month. Time to begin thinking about what I will pack and what I will pack it inside. I will limit what I bring to what I need so that I have no checked baggage.

I wonder if anyone reads my blogs and why... Thanks for reading. I need to grow my readership in regards to my blogs but also my writing in general. I need more visitors to my sites including my photography and writing sites. I need ways to monetize all of this so that I will have the funds to do more and better content. 

A hurricane approaches. It is expected to arrive here about Monday. Tonight is the book club at the library. There are now just two book clubs at the library. I may not go tonight....

I have submitted some writing to a few places including a story. I plan to continue with that character after some positive feedback. I will write short stories and maybe combine them into an ebook to sell on amazon. I need to write more. I need to just write and not focus on the doubts.

I believe that the workout I am doing now is working. I am isolated at the moment. I live in a rural state with inadequate public transportation. It's not as though I would have anywhere to go if there were adequate public transportation. It comes with living in a rural area near a medium sized town and these small communities. I would be open to doing the open mic scene if there were an open mic scene. I would need to work on a stand-up routine but it would be something to do. I have been told that I can sing. I know that I need help with my signing. I need to learn how to breath while singing instead of holding my breath. I would be open to singing. I love photography but there are so many people doing it as a business, or attempting to do it. I have seen the work of some of these photographers and I wa not at all impressed. I would like to write and direct movies and tv shows but I am not in a location that it would work since there are no actors or crew here and the state film ...

I need to decide what to pack for the NYC trip. I am taking a camera. My Nikon. I think I will bring the iPhone and Ipad Mini. Not certain if I will have the iPad by then but I won't have a case for it. I need to do something. Not worry so much about what next or being perfect.

I am feeling somewhat better from last night. I need to decide what I will do the rest of today...

Saturday. I need to decide what I shall do the rest of today.

Friday... Time to make plans for this month. I have some coupons I need to use this month. I might walk to Chipotle to redeem the coupon I have and use my gift cards. I need to look at the free stuff I have for movies and see when and if they expire. I need to get ready for my NYC trip. I need to have my camera batteries charged and decide what to pack and what to pack it in...

Last day of the month. I wonder, sometimes, if I will ever have that first career. I am open to moving almost anywhere for the right job. I would need help moving.

I bought ice cream and Cheerwine and have made floats the past couple of days. The ice cream is cherry with chunks of cherry so it was different and good. I have seen the pictures for the HGTV Urban Oasis 2017 for the first time today and I WANT that house. I will enter to win it as soon as the sweeps opens, which will be sometime this year. I have been entering to win the "retreat" in Vermont but I want to win the Urban Oasis more. It would be great to have my own place to live.

Tuesday. What shall I do now? I am working towards having a better weekly and daily schedule.

Monday. I have been exercising more recently.  I began writing again but have not done too much except some notes on characters and story. I need to do more outlining before the actual writing...

My WordPress is not working today, so I'm not certain if I will have a post on there today or not. I will try again later today. I might play video games today.  Last night I began reading a  book for one of the two book clubs at the library. There were three clubs but one went away due to low attendance. It was the one that met in the morning. The other book club is reading a book I've already read which was better since they had no copies of it when I went to pick them up. I will try to read the other book before the date of the meeting.  I might work on some writing later today... I am going to Kmart to use my Shop Your way points either Wednesday or prior to Wednesday since I have points that expire Wednesday.

I am excited about my trip in October to NYC.

I am tired, going to watch Adam and Justin on Youtube. Not sure what else I shall do today....

Thursday. It's a cloudy day. Dark grey (gray?) clouds.... Rain? Maybe...

Wednesday... I am exercising again. I am writing again. I plan to do new photography soon, maybe some video. I'm looking forward to my trip to NYC.

What do you do with doubt? I need to begin writing again as I have in the past where I just sit down (or stand as I am now) and write...

Eclipse is today. No glasses. Not sure what I will do. I need to write and read each and every day. I want to write short stories, novels, etc and sell them on Amazon. I want to work on web series and TV pilots but I do not have the funds, crew or cast for such projects. I hope to do some new photography for August but have not thought too much about what I will photograph. Being single is not too bad. I mean my schedule is my schedule and I can focus on my goals and dreams, which I need to do more of...

Sunday... Ne week.

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