F Jason Whitaker

 Saturday, September 30, 2023 Saturday, September 30, 2023 Today was a long day. Please visit and share my links: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/jason29171⁠ Poems and Photography: https://a.co/d/bFYc1kO Words, Floating: Poetry And Photography: https://a.co/d/5htw2lz https://jason29171.substack.com/ ⁠http://Fjasonwhitakerwriter.com ⁠ ⁠https://medium.com/@jason29171⁠ ⁠https://www.wattpad.com/user/FJasonWhitaker⁠ ⁠https://www.fjasonphoto.com/⁠ ⁠https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/ls/Z6P9332V8VAW?ref_=wl_share⁠ ⁠Another Day, Another Podcast⁠ ⁠https://www.buymeacoffee.com/jason29171⁠ ⁠https://www.patreon.com/jason29171⁠ ⁠https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87⁠ ⁠https://gurushots.com/jasonwhitaker29171/photos⁠ ⁠https://youtube.com/@jason29171⁠ video editing: ⁠https://youtu.be/-zz6ZQOFQes⁠ ⁠https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_sJ3MSddoSw ⁠ ⁠https://vimeo.com/240788065⁠ ⁠https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DCJvaILKxZQ⁠ ⁠https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EWaIExlNM-Q⁠ ⁠https://youtu.be/hnAKWgof

 Friday, September 29, 2023 I am open to dating. I have always been open to dating. I have never had a guy ask me to a date. I wonder if I will ever have a career. I am certain that no one will ever hire me. I believe that when I submit an application whoever receives it never looks at my information. People use religion as an excuse to hate and murder. People use religion and manipulate the text of that religion to support their hate of others. ⁠ Movies that were meant to be serious drama movies but came off as comedies. I do not know if anyone will read this. Please subscribe to my Patreon if you read this. ⁠https://www.patreon.com/jason29171⁠ Poems and Photography: https://a.co/d/bFYc1kO Words, Floating: Poetry And Photography: https://a.co/d/5htw2lz https://jason29171.substack.com/ ⁠http://Fjasonwhitakerwriter.com ⁠ ⁠https://medium.com/@jason29171⁠ ⁠https://www.wattpad.com/user/FJasonWhitaker⁠ ⁠https://www.fjasonphoto.com/⁠ ⁠https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/ls/Z6P9332V8VAW?ref_=w

 Thursday, September 28, 2023 The fidget cube I ordered from Amazon arrived today. I want to learn to play the drums. I have a drum set. I need space to learn. The goal would be to learn to play the drums and join a band. At one time I listened to nothing but "Christian music" and I went to concerts. I volunteered as a camera operator for a "Christian music festival" twice. I saw how it was so commercial and cult-like. The thing about that music is the quality overall is not high. It is not high-quality music in general. Most of it consists of songs that sound similar to one another to the point that they keep utilizing some of the same songs again and again as though they are doing something new. Do you ever laugh out loud for no apparent reason and find it difficult to stop laughing? I went to one place this morning. Listen to my podcast. I posted some poems from a book of my poems via my Patreon. Subscribe to my Patreon and read my poetry. Buy my books of p

 Wednesday, September 27, 2023 There were two cute guys at the place I went to today for a free lunch. It is not often that I see guys I am attracted to at the places that I go... I have thought back to the times in which I had older men suck my cock. I think about how nervous I was meeting older men somewhere in public. I remember them on their knees in front of me. I would close my eyes as they sucked. I would imagine being with guys my age. Mostly it felt good to be sucked off. Afterward, I felt weird. I felt regret because I allowed an older me whom I had not feelings for do something so intimate. Would I allow an older man to suck my dick again? I do not think I would but I know how I am and if I were placed in a certain situation I might but I do not think I will be in that situation. A few years ago I met this older man at a church I attended. I do not recall how I found him online but I did. Maybe Facebook or one of the Queer dating sites. I have no idea how it came about but h

 Tuesday, September 26, 2023 I am horrible at self-promotion which is why my two books on Amazon have only sold a total of ONE copy. I do want a boyfriend. I do want him to someday propose to me and have a dream wedding. I do not believe that I will ever find anyone who wants to be my boyfriend. Star Trek Theme: Live Long and Laugh To go where no person has laughed... Laugh! I'm not a comedian, I'm a Doctor! I do not feel like going anywhere today. I plan to go to a few places tomorrow. I have plans on Thursday morning and Saturday. I plan to browse job listings and other things today. The hands of a clock taunt me, reminding me that the time for my interview has passed, and I am still waiting in the reception area. I have scanned every magazine, completed the crossword in the newspaper that I brought with me, and I have no doubt as to how many tiles the ceiling consists of 47. It’s a hot day and I use the cologne and perfume samples in the magazines

 Monday, September 25, 2023 I see the potential for my writing and other content creation. I can imagine what it could be like when I am past the growing phase of being a content creator and living in the phase in which I earn an adequate living from content creation. The "religious leaders" of the cult of denominations do not want you to question the things they say and the things they do. They want your money. They want your blind obedience to them. They want you to live in ignorance because their power comes from your ignorance. This post was left blank intentionally. I feel tired. I plan to work on my writing and begin editing a video for a video editing contest. I am considering going somewhere tomorrow. The Kelleys by F. Jason Whitaker ep6 Christie the Showoff Bowls INT. BOWLING ALLEY — DAY Christie and Patrick enter the bowling alley.   ⁠https://www.patreon.com/jason29171⁠ Poems and Photography: https://a.co/d/bFYc1kO Words, Floating: Poetry And Photography: http

 Sunday, September 24, 2023 I met a guy named Peter. I do not recall how I met him. During the time that I knew him we met at various places. I shared my poetry with him. I wrote poems about him. I liked him. We were not boyfriends. It is possible that he considered us boyfriends but I do not believe he did. We kissed. I played with his chest. I never touched his cock. We never had sex. My time with him was some of the most intimate of experiences I have ever had including the times I had sex with random guys. I wanted to be more than whatever we were but Peter was a dancer and he was afraid of being out. He was afraid that having a boyfriend would end his dancing career. I do not remember why I stopped seeing him. I think about him often. I had a dark and strange period in my life. I moved in with an older man because I thought that I had nowhere else to go. He wanted more than friendship after I was there for a few days. I gave in and allowed him to suck my cock twice. Both ti