F Jason Whitaker

Monday, April 29, 2024 I've had several older men suck my cock during my life. I wonder what they were thinking when they looked at me. I wonder what they were thinking while sucking my cock. I do not want to be alone all of the time. I want a boyfriend.  I dream of having a boyfriend. I wonder what it will be like to have that first boyfriend. I've had sex. I've never had a boyfriend. I miss having sex. I have not been with a guy who I was attracted to since I lived in California. People quote the Bible so they can further their own agenda. They quote things that were falsely translated by a few men with their own agenda of hate. Being LGBTQ+ is not a sin. Loving someone is not a sin. Is there a bingo card for sexual positions? I'd be interested in completing a game of bingo with a cute fit guy. Monday. I won a Disney gift Card this morning. I have one thing to do at 2 PM. I do not know what I will do the rest of today or tomorrow. Wednesday I am going

Sunday, April 28, 2024 I love the feeling of a guy sucking my cock. I like his mouth on my cock. I like it when he takes my cock into his mouth. I like the feeling when I finish while in his mouth. A few times, I had a crush on someone older than me. Most of them were when I was a child and I had crushes on older boys. A couple of times after turning 13 I had crushes on older men. What if people stopped telling children about religion and waited until they were 13 to begin telling them about religion? Wait until they enter adulthood to tell them about religion. Once I was with a guy and I was so tired. It was not unusual for me to meet with a guy after spending hours talking with different guys. By the time I met with him, I was tired. I was behind him. He was leaning across my bed. I was inside of him. I do not believe that I fell asleep but close to falling asleep. It was not the guy. I liked the guy. He was cute and fit. He told me to go faster. I went faster. I only met him once. I

Saturday, April 27, 2024 I have sucked dick a few times. I am particular about sucking cock. I will not suck a penis that smells bad or looks weird. I have to be in the mood to suck a dick. I am versatile but I will only bottom for some. I will no longer top for anyone either. I mean anyone as in I am selective about who I top. I am more selective now than I have been in the past. I am also not interested in old men sucking my cock.  There is so much variety when it comes to cocks. Just because I like dick doesn't mean I want any dick. I have no interest in giant dicks. If they are so big, they will not go anywhere near any opening on my body. I've heard the music, the magic in the chords played together, words sang together, and the sounds hit me like I'm feeling the same feelings as the song is giving. I feel tired. I did laundry today. I do not know what I will do tomorrow. I will be busy on Monday and Wednesday. I want a boyfriend. He should be between 5'2 and 5'

Friday, April 26, 2024 I had a sex dream. In the dream, I was topping a guy on a busy road. We were on the side of the road. In my dream, I was worried about someone seeing us. I need a boyfriend. I need a boyfriend to cuddle with. I need a boyfriend. What does it mean if you have a sex dream in which you are topping a guy on a busy road while worrying about someone seeing you? Early evening watching the rain, a song plays in my head, I once read a book about finding love but today I watch the rain alone. I'm tired. I went to a couple of places today. I have no plans tomorrow. https://www.patreon.com/jason29171⁠⁠ ⁠http://swellcast.com/jason29171⁠ Poems and Photography: ⁠https://a.co/d/bFYc1kO⁠ Words, Floating: Poetry And Photography: ⁠https://a.co/d/5htw2lz⁠ ⁠https://jason29171.substack.com/⁠ ⁠⁠http://Fjasonwhitakerwriter.com ⁠⁠ ⁠⁠https://medium.com/@jason29171⁠⁠ https://www.viewbug.com/member/jason29171 https://neobook.org/jason29171/ ⁠⁠https://www.wattpad.com/user/FJaso

Thursday, April 25, 2024 My hope is that my life will improve soon. I am trying to find help. I am trying to connect with resources to help me establish a life.  I am very interested in having a boyfriend. I am still trying to figure out how to meet anyone. Why do people work so many hours making the rich people richer? I wake up with a dream lingering in my mind, finding a pace to my day, thoughts racing through my mind, remind me all the time of the moments I left behind. He was in my life for a short period, I have the memories from all of those times we shared. I cared for him. I go to sleep wondering if things could have been different all of those years ago. I don't know how things would have been different but I like to think they could have been... I am going somewhere tomorrow morning. I am doing laundry tomorrow. https://www.patreon.com/jason29171⁠⁠ ⁠http://swellcast.com/jason29171⁠ Poems and Photography: ⁠https://a.co/d/bFYc1kO⁠ Words, Floating: Poetry And Photogra

Wednesday, April 24, 2024 I'm looking for a first career. If you want to be friends or more than friends then please make it obvious to me. I need help beginning a career as a standup comedian. I hear the bells ringing marking the passing of time, a lapse in my mind, and I find something once lost. I feel the air against my skin, I cannot pretend to know anything when I doubt the words I once said. Hold me close and kiss me on the lips. Take me to your bed and hold me there. I feel your skin against my skin, in my mind, and it makes me want you in my life more than ever before. We could remain in bed all day sometimes and discover the maps of our lives mapped out on our skin in the scars left behind. I am going to a free lunch and a few other places today. I have no idea what else I will do today... https://www.patreon.com/jason29171⁠⁠ ⁠http://swellcast.com/jason29171⁠ Poems and Photography: ⁠https://a.co/d/bFYc1kO⁠ Words, Floating: Poetry And Photography: ⁠https://a.co/d