F Jason Whitaker

Friday, April 26, 2024 I had a sex dream. In the dream, I was topping a guy on a busy road. We were on the side of the road. In my dream, I was worried about someone seeing us. I need a boyfriend. I need a boyfriend to cuddle with. I need a boyfriend. What does it mean if you have a sex dream in which you are topping a guy on a busy road while worrying about someone seeing you? Early evening watching the rain, a song plays in my head, I once read a book about finding love but today I watch the rain alone. I'm tired. I went to a couple of places today. I have no plans tomorrow. https://www.patreon.com/jason29171⁠⁠ ⁠http://swellcast.com/jason29171⁠ Poems and Photography: ⁠https://a.co/d/bFYc1kO⁠ Words, Floating: Poetry And Photography: ⁠https://a.co/d/5htw2lz⁠ ⁠https://jason29171.substack.com/⁠ ⁠⁠http://Fjasonwhitakerwriter.com ⁠⁠ ⁠⁠https://medium.com/@jason29171⁠⁠ https://www.viewbug.com/member/jason29171 https://neobook.org/jason29171/ ⁠⁠https://www.wattpad.com/user/FJaso

Thursday, April 25, 2024 My hope is that my life will improve soon. I am trying to find help. I am trying to connect with resources to help me establish a life.  I am very interested in having a boyfriend. I am still trying to figure out how to meet anyone. Why do people work so many hours making the rich people richer? I wake up with a dream lingering in my mind, finding a pace to my day, thoughts racing through my mind, remind me all the time of the moments I left behind. He was in my life for a short period, I have the memories from all of those times we shared. I cared for him. I go to sleep wondering if things could have been different all of those years ago. I don't know how things would have been different but I like to think they could have been... I am going somewhere tomorrow morning. I am doing laundry tomorrow. https://www.patreon.com/jason29171⁠⁠ ⁠http://swellcast.com/jason29171⁠ Poems and Photography: ⁠https://a.co/d/bFYc1kO⁠ Words, Floating: Poetry And Photogra

Wednesday, April 24, 2024 I'm looking for a first career. If you want to be friends or more than friends then please make it obvious to me. I need help beginning a career as a standup comedian. I hear the bells ringing marking the passing of time, a lapse in my mind, and I find something once lost. I feel the air against my skin, I cannot pretend to know anything when I doubt the words I once said. Hold me close and kiss me on the lips. Take me to your bed and hold me there. I feel your skin against my skin, in my mind, and it makes me want you in my life more than ever before. We could remain in bed all day sometimes and discover the maps of our lives mapped out on our skin in the scars left behind. I am going to a free lunch and a few other places today. I have no idea what else I will do today... https://www.patreon.com/jason29171⁠⁠ ⁠http://swellcast.com/jason29171⁠ Poems and Photography: ⁠https://a.co/d/bFYc1kO⁠ Words, Floating: Poetry And Photography: ⁠https://a.co/d

Tuesday, April 23, 2024 Today was a long day. I want a boyfriend. I am still determining where or how to begin looking for a boyfriend. My cock looks different at different times. Am I the only one? It varies in shape and size depending on my mood. I once dreamt of telephone poles and the wires stretching in between. I once had a crush on the older boys at Summer camp. I once hid who I was... Hid who I am. I went to an Autism Resource event today. Something was delivered from the UK today. I am tired. I am going somewhere tomorrow. I am going to a few places tomorrow... https://www.patreon.com/jason29171⁠⁠ ⁠http://swellcast.com/jason29171⁠ Poems and Photography: ⁠https://a.co/d/bFYc1kO⁠ Words, Floating: Poetry And Photography: ⁠https://a.co/d/5htw2lz⁠ ⁠https://jason29171.substack.com/⁠ ⁠⁠http://Fjasonwhitakerwriter.com ⁠⁠ ⁠⁠https://medium.com/@jason29171⁠⁠ https://www.viewbug.com/member/jason29171 https://neobook.org/jason29171/ ⁠⁠https://www.wattpad

Monday, April 22, 2024 The customer service at my bank, United Bank, is horrible. They do not know what they are doing. They are also rude. A book I ordered from Amazon is arriving today. I'm Autistic with ADHD and PTSD. I am a member of the LGBTQ+ community. You are not allowed to make parts of my identity into jokes. Sometimes I think back to different times, moments of my life gone but the memories are still vivid. The photographs I took are now gone but the images in my mind remain. I kissed you often. I loved kissing you. I guess we could have had something more but you were not willing to give love a chance. I have looked back to those times these years since and I have found it difficult to forget about you or our times together. I went to a few places today: CVS Food Lion Circle K A book from Amazon was delivered. A free can of sparkling water was delivered today. Tomorrow will be a busy day. https://www.patreon.com/jason29171⁠⁠ ⁠http

Sunday, April 21, 2024 I'm Autistic. Memories I have not thought of in years will sometimes return to me while having a sensory experience like smelling a familiar smell connected to that memory. What would be my ideal date for the first date? Something related to my special interests but not somewhere with a large crowd or a noisy environment. I need to hear his voice. I need to see him. I need to get to know him. Priest. Preacher. Pastor. Etc. All of them are the same to me. They're made-up titles people give themselves thinking that a title makes them superior to anyone. I like the word cock. Dick is a nice word. Penis sounds like you are a doctor. I like the feel of a nice cock in my hands. I hate the mess so I swallow. I'm finding myself living in the past moments, times gone but never forgotten, when I once spent time with others. He arrived and I was ready. On my bed, he was above me and in me. In my mind, I recall the feeling of his cock sliding into me, I