Saturday, November 04, 2023

- November 04, 2023

I have never had a boyfriend. I have asked guys to be my boyfriend but they were either hetero or said no. I think about a few guys that I had a crush on and I wonder where they are now.

I want a boyfriend to spend most of my time with but I would also need time alone sometimes.

The first time a guy finished in my mouth was with a guy that I was in love with and he was someone that I wanted a relationship with but he turned me down.

I was on my knees, between his legs, in his bedroom. It was salty. I swallowed.

It only happened once with him. We kissed all of the time.

What does it mean to Love?'

I am horrible with names. I usually forget a name a few seconds after hearing it.

Name tags are helpful.

I have had many interesting experiences in my life. Once I pulled out my cock and showed it to a bunch of guys gathered around. They seemed impressed. I am not saying that I have this massive dick. It's not small but it's not giant either. It is small when not aroused. It is also different sizes based on my mood.

I asked a cute guy once if I could see his cock. He took me aside and showed it to me. I wish that I could have done more with his cock.

When I lived in California I would meet guys my age as well as older men but when I came to South Carolina I found myself only meeting older men.

I plan to go to a few places today.

I would like to have a boyfriend but I almost never meet guys who I am attracted to in person.

Books stacked, boxes all around, you brought me here, after dark, your mouth finds me there, I concentrate on somewhere else, I want to finish but it is not happening, I never imagined being there with an older man, I never imagined my cock in his mouth as I try to fill my mind with images of other guys.

It was a time when I was uncertain of everything. You invited me there. I never said no.

Those older men wanted me for a moment then I never heard from them.

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