Wednesday, October 25, 2023

- October 25, 2023

I was overwhelmed today. I went to a few places today. I was overwhelmed by the sounds and people. I was very happy to be back in my bedroom. I do not remember being this overwhelmed recently.

In moments and memories, I recall being with older men. Sitting, his mouth on my cock, a wet warm feeling, he being one of a few older men that would suck my cock. I think part of the reason that I allowed older men to suck my cock was the feeling of being wanted. The feeling of being desired.

What do people mean when they claim to live a "Biblical" life?

Do they sell all of their possessions and give the funds to the Church?

I have Autism. I have a tendency to overshare. I will share about my penis. I share about things that fascinate me. My cock fascinates me at times. I like to play with it. I want a boyfriend so that I can play with his cock. I am versatile, not that you want to know. I can be shy and I can be outgoing. I like being alone at times. I would like to not be alone all of the time.

Comedy is a way for me to deal with so much...

I went to a few places today:

The place I go to for a free lunch, once a month, sometimes. I posted videos showing what I had to eat on my TikTok.

CVS and Food Lion.

I was overwhelmed by the experience. I do not know why I was so overwhelmed by everything today. I was very happy to be back in my bedroom.

The Mickey Mouse pin arrived today. A sample of Lorissa's kitchen Original Beef Stick arrived today. It's not very thin but it's not too thick. My cock is thicker.

I feel the emptiness that comes with being all of the time. I am almost never around anyone my age. I have no friends. I guess I have one friend. A lady I met at one of the church buildings I have been to in the past.

I want a boyfriend. I need his touch and I need his embrace.

I am going to the library in the morning for a game day program. I think I will go to a few other places as well...

When I write a story it is a combination of fiction and real-life experiences. I change some details and at times I write a fantasy version of what happened in my life. I guess it would be fan fiction but fan fiction about my life.

I write about sex. I write about older men sucking my cock. I write about guys that I liked and guys that I was indifferent about. I write about all of it.

I do not know if anyone actually reads any of my writing.

No one has subscribed to my Patreon which makes me believe that no one reads any of my writing.

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