Thursday, October 26, 2023

- October 26, 2023

I feel uncertain about my future. What do I want my life to be like? I don't know because I don't think there's much reason to imagine my ideal life because I doubt that someone like me would be allowed to have their ideal life.

I do not have a type. I like the guys that I like. I do not know if I would date a trans guy. I don't know if I could say who I would date because I would need to know more about them. Just because I am attracted to one person does not mean that I will be attracted to a similar-looking person. It's more than looks for me.

I prefer a guy with a cock that is not very big but not very small. I want a boyfriend that would want to talk about the things that I would want to talk about.

I would need a boyfriend that would love me as I am. I need a boyfriend that I can get to know and love as they are...

If these buildings that claim to be a church were to provide for those in their communities in need then there would be no need. It seems that the Church was meant to provide for the Church, but, since there is no the Church these church buildings should support their communities.

Bananas. I had one today. I placed it in my mouth thinking back to the times I sucked cock. I began to imagine how I would suck a cock. I don't remember my technique from before but I don't think I had a technique.

Is a banana a good way to practice sucking cock. I like how the phrase "sucking cock" sounds. Cock sounds better than penis or dick. Penis sounds clinical and dick feels outdated.

I like the feel of a dick in my hand.

I am trying something new. I am telling jokes. I guess they are jokes. Laugh if they are jokes. Laugh louder because I could not hear you...

I met this guy, in West Hollywood, who was older than me but not as old as some of the older men I have been with in the past. He appeared to like me which made me willing to spend time with him. He led me to the back of a building near the PO. He turned me around at some point and pulled my pants and underwear down. He slid his cock into me. It was a strange experience because in my mind I was thinking about how I liked it but I was also thinking about how bored I was...

I went to the library for the game day program this morning. I had a donut and a cup of coffee.

I went to Wendy's. I used the coupon from the booklet for $1.99 Children's combo with a purchase. I had a cheeseburger with fries and chocolate milk. I bought a small pumpkin spiced frosty.

I rode my bike down the road to a small park. I found two park tables. I sat on my bike between the tables. I ate my food there.

I went back to Wendy's for a free junior frosty from the booklet.

I went by Bojangles on the way home. I picked up a free cajun chicken biscuit and 6 sweet potato pies, not pies but I cannot recall the word. My promo was for the sweet biscuits but they did not have any so they gave me the sweet potato things instead.

I have been doing my sweepstakes and instant-win games since arriving home because I did not have time this morning.

I have a webinar to attend tomorrow. I do not know what else I will do tomorrow. I have no idea what I will do the rest of this week.

I want a boyfriend but I have no idea how that would work for me.

I want to write more. I have a story to complete. I have more than one story to complete. I want to write song lyrics. I want to write plays and screenplays for television.

I have trouble sitting down and writing because I constantly think that it will be a pointless effort because no one is interested and no one will ever be interested in my writing or anything about me in general.

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