Friday, December 15, 2023

- December 15, 2023

I'm Autistic. I am often divided within myself regarding decision-making. Part of me wants to do something and a part wants to do nothing.

I'm Autistic. I was Autistic before I knew that I was Autistic.

Today, while searching for job openings, I came across a posting for a job at a "church" with an inc after the name. I hope they pay taxes since they are a business.

The listing states that you are required to give 10% of your income to the company.

This is a brilliant scam. Have people work for your company and they give back a percent of what you pay them.

I'm Autistic. I also have PTSD and anxiety. It's best not to have any expectations of me based on your experience with other Autistic people. We're not all alike. We may share certain traits but we do not share all of these traits. I say traits but that doesn't seem like the correct word, but I don't know what that correct word is if traits is wrong.

I step outside. A rush of life. A rush of sounds.

To the store I go. The wind blows. Cars flow by as though racing.

Time I am chasing.

Do I have time before dark?

Store. Bright lights. So many options I chose nothing.

Outside my bedroom is chaos.

My bedroom, Once I turn off my devices and turn off the lights, is a refuge.

I went to a few places today. I spoke about it on my podcast.

I do not feel like going anywhere.

I am trying to fix my daily routine so that it is back to normal. I am very overwhelmed.

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