Sunday, April 07, 2024

- April 07, 2024

I met this one guy online when I lived in Hollywood. We met in real life several times. Each time he would suck my cock. He was on my bed and I crawled on top of him. I would lower my cock into his mouth. It felt amazing.

I considered asking him to be my boyfriend. I was uncertain if I was attracted to him or not.

I lost contact with him.

It is very complicated for me when considering whether or not I am attracted to a guy.

I remember meeting this one guy online and then at a mall. I was very hard when I walked up to him. I was so attracted to him. We met twice. He sucked my cock both times.

I like getting my cock sucked.

I like sucking cock when the guy is fit and cute. I do not suck cock when there's an odor down there.

In the past, I would have gone to a church building early this morning. I would have been the first person or one of the first people to arrive. I believed that I was a part of something. Looking back, years later, I know that I have always been an outsider.

I have a story to share. I do not know if it is funny, but I need to laugh about it. I need to not want to think about the moment seriously.

I needed a place to live. There was an older man who was "helping me" find a place to live.

He took me to this place. A retirement community. It was one of those gated community types.

We met this older man, older than the other old man, at some restaurant nearby before going to his house.

I think I was there to convince this old man to allow me to live with him.

He took me to his bedroom.

I was on his bed. I pulled my pants and underwear down.

The old man sucked my cock.

I closed my eyes. I imagined a guy my age sucking my cock.

I admit that it felt great filling his mouth when I finished.

I felt something else afterward. I felt regret.

I never saw that man again.