Monday, April 08, 2024

- April 08, 2024

There was a time in my life when I would meet random old men and they would suck my cock. I no longer have an interest in meeting older men.

I imagine a life different from my current life if certain things were different. I imagine myself having a boyfriend. I want a boyfriend. I have never had a boyfriend.

If each "Church" provided for all the people in need in their area then we would not have people in need. If these "Churches" provided meals and shelter for those in need there would be no homeless people.

These "Churches" want money and they want tax-exempt status but do not want to help anyone.

How do people meet other people? I'm Autistic. There are things that I do not understand about people. How do friends become friends? What is a friend?

Whenever I think about what it means to be a friend I look back on my life and discover that I have never had any friends.

I remember other children not wanting to be around me. I remember others not wanting to be my friend. I remember people not wanting me to be a part of something. I was often excluded.

I have never had a boyfriend. I want a boyfriend. I have no idea how to meet people.

I remember being in a car as a child

watching the poles on the side of the road

reaching upward as the wires strung between them

appeared to go on forever.

We once spent time together,

kissing wherever we were,

I wanted more than fun.