Saturday, April 06, 2024
Saturday, April 06, 2024
I was thinking about how my life could have been different if I could have been myself all those years.
What if I could have been comfortable being myself instead of hiding behind so many masks?
I wish I could have been myself instead of thinking I needed to be like anyone else.
I imagine having a boyfriend in middle and high school. I imagine myself going to school dances with my boyfriend.
I have been robbed of the experiences others had...
I'm Autistic. If a guy is interested in me, they must let me know clearly and precisely.
When I was in California I was taken to a house. I do not know how to refer to this house. They had rules for entering the house. It was not any house.
You had to undress. There were people throughout the house.
I took off my clothes.
I was nervous.
While there I met an older man. He was not very old but he was older than me.
He sucked my cock while others watched.
I've had so many strange experiences.
I finished in his mouth. It felt amazing and awkward at the same time.
I've had a few experiences of being less than fully dressed in places where I was not alone.
I drift between years,
moments in time,
in my memory
looking for nothing
but finding so much
in those flashes of seconds
lived years before...
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I was considering going somewhere today but I decided to stay home instead.
I wonder how my life would have been different if I could have been myself.
I wonder how it would have been different if I had someone who cared about me.
I wonder how things would have been different if I had been aware that I'm Autistic with ADHD.
I imagine having a boyfriend in middle and high school.
I imagine going to schools better suited for me.
I imagine having a career and my own home.
I imagine being proposed to by my boyfriend.
I imagine our wedding.
I imagine my life if people did not think less of me when they saw me.
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