Tuesday, January 09, 2024

- January 09, 2024

Tuesday, January 09, 2024

I won a blanket. A sweepstakes prize.

I hate when auto-correct changes what I type and I do not notice it.

People use the word Christian to describe people who do not even follow the teachings of Christ. Especially the love others part.

There are a few lady comedians that I appreciate. I find their voices calming. I think they are some of the funniest people as well. I would write their names here but I am the worst at remembering names.

A whisper like a leaf floating on a breeze.

I hear the words said amplified to this day.

As a child, in my bed, I heard their taunts as I waited for dreams

to take me from my misery.

Times never change.

Trauma all of my life.

People call me names and never understand me

because they never want to know me.

I submitted my Autism evaluation form last night. I have no idea what will happen after obtaining my Autism diagnosis. I have no idea how it will change my life. I am anxious about this change.

It's been thundering. I become anxious during thunderstorms. Why does my mind work so differently from others?

I keep thinking that someday I will have a boyfriend who will someday propose to me and we'll have a beautiful wedding and a beautiful life together, but I also wonder if there's anyone who would find me attractive.

I want a career. I need a first career. I do not believe that anyone will ever hire me.

I need to do some house cleaning today. I meant to do more yesterday but I became hyper-focused on a couple of things and was not as productive as I had imagined I would be.

I hope I win the HGTV Urban Oasis.

I'm listening to old music, at the moment, trying to not become overwhelmed, but I am already overwhelmed.

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