February 8, 2017 (Wednesday)

I am not sure what I will do. I mean I know things that I will not do.

I am not going to give up. I am not going to give in. There is no reason to not believe that I can achieve these dreams, no matter how long it will take, and I will not allow my doubt to stop me.

I do not know how I will be able to do it on my own, I have no one to help me at the moment, but I will keep moving forward.

I have decided to stop doing what I have been doing, stuck in a routine, and I will not give up no matter what.

I have had almost no response to my posts looking for actors. I knew that it would be impossible to find actors in a place like the one I currently live. There are no actors in my area. I don't know if I would truly call myself an actor, though I have done some acting, because it's not something I put any effort into doing anymore, mostly because there is not a need for actors in my area. 

When I lived in Los Angeles I submitted to auditions and went to auditions, but that's different because it's Los Angeles. Living in a rural area does not make finding actors easy. I see why the studios bring in actors from other areas, when filming in places like this, and why they bring in most of the crew from other places.