Wednesday, September 27, 2023

- September 27, 2023

There were two cute guys at the place I went to today for a free lunch. It is not often that I see guys I am attracted to at the places that I go...

I have thought back to the times in which I had older men suck my cock. I think about how nervous I was meeting older men somewhere in public. I remember them on their knees in front of me. I would close my eyes as they sucked. I would imagine being with guys my age. Mostly it felt good to be sucked off. Afterward, I felt weird. I felt regret because I allowed an older me whom I had not feelings for do something so intimate. Would I allow an older man to suck my dick again? I do not think I would but I know how I am and if I were placed in a certain situation I might but I do not think I will be in that situation.

A few years ago I met this older man at a church I attended. I do not recall how I found him online but I did. Maybe Facebook or one of the Queer dating sites. I have no idea how it came about but he picked me up in his car a few times over the years that I was attending the church. We went to his house. I sat on his sofa, or it could been a couch since I do not know the difference. I pulled my shorts down. He may have helped me lower them. He went down on his knees and sucked my cock. We would talk some before he drove me home. I first met him when I was younger, at another church. He once told me, during those times at his home, that he wanted to suck my cock when he knew me when I was younger. He has not been the only closeted older man to want me...

My cock looks different at different times. It's also a grower. I'm almost always proud of my dick. I once showed a bunch of guys my cock for no reason. I asked them and they wanted to see it. It looked good that day. Sometimes, I look at it and I think it could be better. It never responds when I talk to it. I have seen guys talk to their junk in movies. I go through phases where I want to touch it and hold it all of the time. I also go through phases where I do not think about it. I am trying to get over years of being made to feel inadequate about my body which includes my penis. It's funny how there are so many jokes about the cock but most people don't like to talk about the cock. I think a cock can be beautiful. It can also be funny, I admit, especially seeing some random guy pull out his cock in a movie. Remember "21 Jump Street"

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