F Jason Whitaker

Wednesday. When you think about what to do in the future, so much to consider, how do you decide what to do? I have decisions to make.

This evening there is a program at the library but I am not certain I will go due to the chance of a thunderstorm. I hope to do some writing today. I am making progress at writing more thanks to the blogs I have on my writing website.

Monday.  Wednesday I am going to a free community lunch. Tomorrow I am going to the library for an evening program. Wednesday is also a book group meeting at the library. I am in 3 different book groups, clubs, at the library. I want to set aside more time to read.

Sunday. I had a Skype interview for a Summer job at a camp. I did not get the job because I do not have management experience. I do not know what I will do. I know that no one is hiring me and applying to jobs is a waste of time. I need to focus on writing, photography and video. I can only do so much on my own so I need to focus all my efforts on what I can do. I have hope that this year will be the year...

Where would I want to live? If I could move from here, the middle of nowhere, and move anywhere? A big city: Los Angeles or New York? A medium sized city: Atlanta? A small city: Greenville, SC? Move to the town of Columbia, SC or the community of Lexington? Where would make a big difference. I miss living in Los Angeles for many reasons I do not miss Los Angeles for other reasons. Los Angeles: Public Transportation, people may complain about it, it could always be improved, but at least it exists. Opportunity: Even with a larger population there is more opportunity for me. I think about all of the things I would do when I lived in Los Angeles that I am no longer able to do because I live in a rural area. I am stuck here.  Middle of nowhere.

I need to focus, something I have thought about often, yet I keep finding that I do not want to do anything. What helps is getting something, no matter how small, done. Yesterday I started writing on my writing website . I have 3 blogs on there just as I do on my photography website . The three are: short screenplays, short stories, and poetry. I am considering how to organize the blogs I have on my photography site. I like to have something different on each blog.

Allergies.  Did not get the job I had a Skype interview for, this morning, and I believe no one will ever hire me. I'm stuck in a rural state with no transportation and no income. I miss living in a city. The closest city is Atlanta. There's a town nearby and small communities around me but nothing worth mentioning. I have no idea why but I have had weird FB friend requests in the past. I, at times, have approved them without looking at the profiles. I received a spam message from one of them stating that my profile was spam. This from a fake FB profile. I blocked that profile. I will block FB profiles if they are fake or if they are people to avoid. What to do now? Go back to bed and try to forget today? No, I will attempt to do some writing.

Wednesday. I have 3 blogs. All of them are listed on my website . Please read my blogs if you want to know what I am doing.  Please do not ask me where I am from, my age, or any other questions that may be answered on my social media. For me it means that you are phishing for information that is already available somewhere if I want it known. I need help. I need supporters on my Patreon .  Thank you for your support. What would you like to see in my photography, video and writing? Become a supporter and you can make requests... Please visit my Linkedin Profile and the Video I edited for a contest. Please visit my information page on About Me where you can find my social media links.

I have plans. Ideas. Goals. I need to put this into action. I shall focus on writing. Selling through Amazon. Promote my writing. Obtain supporters on Patreon.  I hope to be able to sell my writing and have supporters on Patreon so that I will have an income and be able to do more. I will write short stories in a series or two or more. Write novels.  I am hopeful.

I plan to create a schedule. A writing schedule. A reading schedule.  I hope to write and publish on Amazon. I need a source of income and I hope that this will be a start.

Hello. It's almost time to say good night.  I have no idea what the rest of this year will look like but I have hope...

Sunday. New week. I hope to focus on writing. I need to focus on writing. 

One of my blogs is not working properly, so  I am not sure I will be able to post tonight. Wix.com is good but has issues. One problem I have with the company is that I was told I won a sweepstakes that they held but have not heard back and communicating with them is nearly impossible.  Tomorrow is Sunday. New Week. I plan to go to Kmart and use my "Shop Your Way" points.

Friday. Maybe, I will write. I need to focus on writing more.

Hello. It's Thursday, which means tomorrow is Friday. It's been hot. I might do some photography and video tomorrow.

Outdoors May 17, 2017

Outdoors May 17, 2017

I have updated my website. I have new photos and a video. Please share my site, thanks!

Did some macro video and photography today.

Tall trees surround me. An opening. A building. Water rushing. An old mill. Somewhere in the mountains. Somewhere in time. A memory not forgotten.  A path. Fallen tree. A photograph lost. The memory remains. A creek, or was it a river, flowing. More photographs. Only memories remain.

Monday. I sit here. It's warm. I want to leave this place for the open road. I'm not sure what that means since I'm not sure what a closed road would consist of.... I want to do so much but I've been through some stuff that make me question whether or not it's worth trying to do anything. Sometimes, I have plans for things to do but not the motivation or resources to do them...

Watching time on my wall, lights low, as the music flows over me. In dreams I find you, the future so clear, the one I will someday love. I can hear the rhythm, it moves me, but the words drift away. The words drift away. I imagine you though I have never met you. I imagine our lives. What will it be like to be in love?

Watching time on my wall, lights low, as the music flows over me. In dreams I find you, the future so clear, the one I will someday love. I can hear the rhythm, it moves me, but the words drift away. The words drift away. I imagine you though I have never met you. I imagine our lives. What will it be like to be in love?

The lights flicker steadily, night outside so readily available for adventure, I take my leave of myself for a form that is worthy to be imagined. Take down the posters, leave the magazines, let's leave this place for somewhere we've only been in our daydreams.  Will you be my everything, the boy I need, my companion on this journey into the moonlight? One more song before we pull off the freeway, say the words that take my breath away, sway with the songs in our heads.  Somewhere far from where we began, we shed our layers, our lips express without a word what we feel so strong. You consume me, I consume you, we find joy in our time together, time we shall never forget.

I am currently watching a boring movie, Growing up and other Lies, about an older man trying to grow up I guess. He's so far past growing up that it's ridiculous. His friends are jerks. The movie is not worth watching unless you're wasting time like I am now. What do I want to do today? I plan to watch the free Redbox rental I picked up this morning, later today, with my mom. I might try to do some writing but I feel drained. It might be my wisdom tooth and allergies....  

Last day of the week.  I think of certain people that are now gone, I try to hear their voices, and I try to remember the last time I heard their voice. Tonight. What shall I do tonight? Maybe, I can sit down and do some writing?

I write blogs. I share about my life. I wonder if anyone reads these blogs. Today I hope to get something done. Friday. Tomorrow is the last day to another week. Looking back I wonder if I should have done anything differently this week...

Home again. It was hot today. I am sitting here wondering if I want to do anything the rest of the day...

Last night I looked back upon my time in Ventura, California. I often think back to my time in California, including after I moved away from Ventura, and I do miss living in California. I do miss living in a city. Now, I am not even close to a city. The closest city to me is Atlanta and that is so far from me. I lived in Culver City, Hollywood, Los Angeles... I would love to see some friends again, Toni, and I would like to go out there again. I do not mis everything from California. There are some people that I will never miss. I hate being here. There's nothing here. I have to walk anywhere I go. People cannot drive here. A crazy woman tried to hit me with her van, while I was crossing at a crosswalk, she did not even slow down. The people here are rude in general. Some are nice. Living in a rural area without the charms of living in a rural area is not nice. I miss the fellowship at Christ Chapel of the Valley. I miss going to free movies, working at the studios, and I miss work...

Tonight, I have been reflecting upon my time in a place called Ventura, California. The place that I now consider my hometown. I enjoyed living there and I miss living there. I met so many people while living in Ventura. Some of those people are no longer with us, Tim. It's not easy to think about those times without thinking about the ones no longer here. I remember going to Skate Street. I remember when it opened again afterwards. The celebrating. The video games. I remember my first time at The Bridge. I remember my first Sunday walking into the building. There was mourning for another member of the community. I recall the art on the walls. The open mic nights. Operating the jib. Sorry about that time I hit you in the head by mistake. If you are reading this you know what I am referring to.  I look back on those times I operated the camera for the arts program that used our space.  I think about the youth group I was a member of at another church. Going to Hume Lake in the ...

Hello, again. It is hot outside. I have this idea of owning a tiny house and traveling around the country, taking certain routes, going to all of the small communities along the way, documenting my journeys, and meeting new people, but I wonder if I will ever be able to raise the needed funds. 

A new day. Another day. Allergies.  Maybe, I will get some writing done. staying home today.

Sometimes, when I’m in bed alone waiting for sleep to take me from the waking world, I think about everything that has taken place up to that moment in my life as though those moments are dreams that I can forget as soon as I open my eyes. Outside rain pours. I can hear the drops of rain on the roof. Thunder resonates as lightning reveals what was hidden by the night, a passing storm outside, and a moment like revelation passes before me as I sit up in bed with the realization that these things that remain are there for a purpose. In my room, night, meditating upon life, attempting to plot a path in life that will lead me away from everything I know as my life as it is for a future full of hope and potential I dream. I have many forms of dreams: those I have while asleep and those I have while awake. I lay back down. The sheet beneath me now cool from the absence of my heat. My mind wanders through a library of imagery. My hands linger in places aroused by fleeting imag...

Allergies. Watching a movie. I imagine making movies, web series, and videos in general. If I could find some actors near me I would make movies. What shall I do?

This evening: library: coloring. I have allergies. I have no idea what I am allergic to, but I am allergic to something in the air at this moment. I wonder what I will do. I mean with my life. I keep thinking that someone will hire me but that does not seem to be a viable option. I considered producing a web series (or more than one) locally but I could not find enough actors and no crew. I would be open to doing photography and video freelance but have not done much more than a few volunteer gigs. I hope things will change soon.

Monday. Allergies. Bad. Free Redbox rentals: Rogue One and Fantastic Beasts: great. Plans this week: write, read, watch movies, coloring program at library.

What shall I do today? A new day. A new week.

I received some freebies today. From Bzzz Agent I received a Bic Flex 5 Hybrid . It looks great. I will find out how great it works next week. I have also received 2 Old Spice products: Steel Courage: body wash and deodorant . They have an intriguing scent. I like the scent, I do not know how to describe the scent, and I look forward to using them. I hope to do more writing in the near future, including today, and I will post more information concerning that writing on my blogs.

Today I received a free copy of   "Love Letters From God: Bible Stories for a Girl's Heart" written by Glenys Nellist and illustrated by Rachel Clowes . Each story from the Bible have a "letter from God" that includes an aspect from the story. Each story also includes a portion of scripture. This is an inspirational book that could inspire young readers. The personalization that is included in the book make the stories from the Bible more than stories from so long ago. This book makes the stories from so long ago relevent to the reader today. Options. Goals. Plans. How do you organize your time? That is the question I ask myself. How should I organize my time? It's good to be productive but life is more than being productive.

Today I received a free bar of Fiber One Salted Caramel & Dark Chocolate Layered Chewy Bar. It I have not eaten it yet, but it sounds delicious. Description on label: whole oats & dark chocolate chunks with a salted caramel and dark chocolate flavored drizzle. I like caramel and chocolate so I am looking forward to eating it. I received a coupon for a free Nestea Iced Tea (18.5 - 23 oz.) or 1.79$ off any Nestea Iced Tea .5L 6-pack or larger. There's a picture on the coupon depicting three different flavors. I hope to find a store that sells Nestea Iced Tea. I received a free copy of the book "Hello Stars" by Alena Pitts with Wynter Pitts . It has a bright, colorful, cover. I'm not sure what to say about it. It seems to be non-fiction in nature. It also seems to be a religious devotional type book with personal experiences dealing with faith and life.  I hope to read it in the next few weeks and write more about it then. Beginning now I will post reviews of...

May the 4th (Fourth) be with you! Thursday! It's almost time for lunch and I have no idea what I will eat. It's going to rain today. Not sure what I will do since it will rain. Thunderstorms!!!!

Allergies!!! I want to go back to bed but I won't. I am deciding what I will do today. Photography? Video? Lunch at Jersey Mike's? Writing? I will do some reading tonight before I go to bed. Read before I go to bed is something I do almost every night. I need to schedule some time to write as well. I have some mental hurdles to overcome when it comes to writing.

I want to spend some time of writing tonight, but my allergies are not cooperating.  I need to find somewhere to do some photography. I hope to add new photography to my website each month.

Tuesday!!! A new day. I am hopeful about the future.

A new month. I plan to do some photography this month. I plan to add a new page of photography to my website each month. I hope to do some video, maybe some showing me taking photos, but I am not certain if it will happen this month.