F Jason Whitaker

 Wednesday, October 25, 2023 I was overwhelmed today. I went to a few places today. I was overwhelmed by the sounds and people. I was very happy to be back in my bedroom. I do not remember being this overwhelmed recently. In moments and memories, I recall being with older men. Sitting, his mouth on my cock, a wet warm feeling, he being one of a few older men that would suck my cock. I think part of the reason that I allowed older men to suck my cock was the feeling of being wanted. The feeling of being desired. What do people mean when they claim to live a "Biblical" life? Do they sell all of their possessions and give the funds to the Church? I have Autism. I have a tendency to overshare. I will share about my penis. I share about things that fascinate me. My cock fascinates me at times. I like to play with it. I want a boyfriend so that I can play with his cock. I am versatile, not that you want to know. I can be shy and I can be outgoing. I like being alone at times...

  Tuesday, October 24, 2023 I feel the need to do so much but I am overwhelmed to the point that I do almost nothing instead. I need help. I cannot do anything on my own. Stop using religion as an excuse for your agenda of hate. I mean I went to Pride Saturday and one thing I notice about going anywhere is that people never go anywhere with the intention of making friends. They go to these places with their friends. I have been able to get a couple of things done today. I plan to do a job search at some point. I have so many stories to tell but no one to hear them. I am alone all of the time. I have been taken advantage of in the past... I have yet to continue the Haunted short story. I am thinking I will work on it tonight but I do not know if I will or not. I have one or more books of poetry to work on as well. I have only sold one copy of by books of poetry on Amazon. No one is interested in my writing or anything I do... ⁠https://www.patreon.com/jason2917...

 Monday, October 23, 2023 I met a couple of older men, Saturday, that I have talked with before. I am uncertain if I was reading them correctly or not but I had this feeling they wanted to suck my cock. I could be wrong. At one time I would have allowed them to suck my cock without hesitation but now I am not certain. I like having my cock sucked. I like the feeling. I do not know if I want to have my cock sucked by older men anymore. I have not had sex in years. I often think back to the few times I have been with guys my age, which was when I lived in California, and I wish that I could experience that again. I wrapped my legs around this one guy as he cock was inside of me. I pulled myself into his cock more because I wanted more of him inside of me. I was very attracted to him. I was sucking on the cock of this one guy. I was nervous because I have not sucked cock that many times and I was nervous about him cumming in my mouth. I was not certain if I would like him cummin...

 Sunday, October 22, 2023 I began thinking, this week if any guy could ever find me attractive. I wonder if any guy that I would find attractive could ever be attracted to me. I met a guy online. We met a few times in person. He sucked my cock each time we met. I do not recall why we stopped meeting. I wonder what happened to him.  Love. If you preach hate then you do not know Love. Comedy is subjective but laughter is universal. I feel so alone all of the time. Will I ever have a boyfriend? Will I ever have friends? I am leaving for the church building in a few minutes. I have no idea what I am doing the rest of the week. I have been a writer since Elementary school. I do not have any of my writing from those years. A large amount of my writing is gone forever. Please consider supporting the arts by supporting me. ⁠https://www.patreon.com/jason29171⁠ Poems and Photography: https://a.co/d/bFYc1kO Words, Floating: Poetry And Photography: https://a.co/d/5htw2...

 Saturday, October 21, 2023 I like to sleep in the nude with a weighted blanket. I would like to have a boyfriend to sleep with me. I could cuddle with them and play with their cock whenever I am in the mood...  I like to watch my penis, sometimes, grow. In the past, I have noticed that it appears bigger whenever I am with someone I am attracted to... Sin is the word that some people use to describe anything they do not agree with no matter if it is a sin or not... I have told jokes before and the only way I knew for certain that they were funny is because someone laughed at the jokes. My poetry is in the moment. I rarely edit my poems. I went to the Pride Festival in the town across the river from where I live. I rode my bike. I had to switch the back wheel on the bike I rode with the wheel from my other bike due to having a flat on the bike that I rode. I brought home a pile of candy and a stack of LGBTQ+ books. I do not know what I am doing tomorrow... ⁠https:...

 Friday, October 20, 2023 Having faith does not mean you have a supernatural power to do anything. There are limitations. Read the text, the entire text. I have my own approach to things in life. Sometimes I have to tell myself that I am going to do a certain thing at a certain date and time or I will not get that thing done. I do have moments of spontaneous planning. Some things I can do with only a moment's notice. I am able to learn new things but I often need to learn my own way of doing them that works for me. I do not know if I would ever be able to learn a foreign language. I have considered it in the past and it is up there with remembering names. I might be able to learn a new language but I would need certain things before I could learn any language. I do not often recognize social cues. I do not always recognize the time in which you should leave a meeting or an activity. I have other things that make me who I am... I decided not to go to the Parade, i...

 Thursday, October 19, 2023 I write short stories that sometimes incorporate events and people from my life. I once met a guy online, he was about my age, and I met him at a house. We began kissing as soon as he opened the door. We had said a few words to each other before kissing. He led me upstairs to a bedroom. We undressed. I sucked his cock. He finished. I swallowed. I chatted with him afterward. I thought he was going to be my first boyfriend. I never saw him again. Stop trying to appear to be perfect. Be you. Why are candy wrappers nosier when you need them to be quiet? I wonder if anyone reads my writing. I wonder if they like to read my writing. I think that if they liked my writing then they would subscribe to my Patreon and buy my books on Amazon. I went to the library and Walmart today. I also went to Walgreens and Dunkin'. I have stories that I could tell. I tell some of them on my blogs. Read my blog on my Patreon:   ⁠https://www.patreon.com/j...