Wednesday July 15, 2020

Each day is a struggle for me. I can sit at my desk and do nothing which is what I feel like doing the majority of the time or I can be productive. The problem is that I cannot force myself to be productive. Forcing myself to be productive does the opposite. I become overwhelmed by all of the things that should be doing.

My level of depression: I feel so down so much that I have not been this low but a few times before. In this moment it is an accumulation of the many years of trauma.

No one knows what my life has been like and no one wants to know me.

I do not know what I will do today. I plan to go to Taco Bell for free tacos. I might go to 7-11. I hope to do some writing.

I need help raising funds to purchase a tiny house and truck. Please visit the first link below if you care. I doubt anyone will. I'm not someone that people help. People take advantage of me but they never help.

I need to find a way to improve my life on my own but I have no idea where to begin.

https://crowdrise.com/dashboard/fjasonwhitaker/videoproductionequipment

https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87

https://teespring.com/stores/f-jason-whitaker-photography

http://patreon.com/jason29171

https://www.tiktok.com/@jason29171

Podcast:

 https://open.spotify.com/show/5FKzPNjMPgt2YQUzwnwbco

https://www.fjasonphoto.com/

https://fjasonwhitakerwriter.com/

https://www.instagram.com/jason29171/

https://www.instagram.com/fjasonwhitaker

https://www.instagram.com/fjwwriter

http://www.twitter.com/FJWphotography

http://www.twitter.com/FJasonWhitaker1

http://www.twitter.com/fjasonwriter

http://www.twitter.com/jason29171

video editing:

https://vimeo.com/240788065

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DCJvaILKxZQ

https://youtu.be/_sJ3MSddoSw

Video editing and color grading:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EWaIExlNM-Q

Amazon Wish List:

https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/ls/1P4JNPHZT4PNR?ref_=wl_share

B&H Wish Lists:

https://www.bnh.com/wish/d708c22fb2c7d1f91713b6953a9b1957/

https://www.bnh.com/wish/6bf0fe098ba1479a6647d7f85ba48939/