F Jason Whitaker

Wednesday, April 24, 2024 I'm looking for a first career. If you want to be friends or more than friends then please make it obvious to me. I need help beginning a career as a standup comedian. I hear the bells ringing marking the passing of time, a lapse in my mind, and I find something once lost. I feel the air against my skin, I cannot pretend to know anything when I doubt the words I once said. Hold me close and kiss me on the lips. Take me to your bed and hold me there. I feel your skin against my skin, in my mind, and it makes me want you in my life more than ever before. We could remain in bed all day sometimes and discover the maps of our lives mapped out on our skin in the scars left behind. I am going to a free lunch and a few other places today. I have no idea what else I will do today... https://www.patreon.com/jason29171⁠⁠ ⁠http://swellcast.com/jason29171⁠ Poems and Photography: ⁠https://a.co/d/bFYc1kO⁠ Words, Floating: Poetry And Photography: ⁠https://a.co/d...

Tuesday, April 23, 2024 Today was a long day. I want a boyfriend. I am still determining where or how to begin looking for a boyfriend. My cock looks different at different times. Am I the only one? It varies in shape and size depending on my mood. I once dreamt of telephone poles and the wires stretching in between. I once had a crush on the older boys at Summer camp. I once hid who I was... Hid who I am. I went to an Autism Resource event today. Something was delivered from the UK today. I am tired. I am going somewhere tomorrow. I am going to a few places tomorrow... https://www.patreon.com/jason29171⁠⁠ ⁠http://swellcast.com/jason29171⁠ Poems and Photography: ⁠https://a.co/d/bFYc1kO⁠ Words, Floating: Poetry And Photography: ⁠https://a.co/d/5htw2lz⁠ ⁠https://jason29171.substack.com/⁠ ⁠⁠http://Fjasonwhitakerwriter.com ⁠⁠ ⁠⁠https://medium.com/@jason29171⁠⁠ https://www.viewbug.com/member/jason29171 https://neobook.org/jason29171/ ⁠⁠https://www.wat...

Monday, April 22, 2024 The customer service at my bank, United Bank, is horrible. They do not know what they are doing. They are also rude. A book I ordered from Amazon is arriving today. I'm Autistic with ADHD and PTSD. I am a member of the LGBTQ+ community. You are not allowed to make parts of my identity into jokes. Sometimes I think back to different times, moments of my life gone but the memories are still vivid. The photographs I took are now gone but the images in my mind remain. I kissed you often. I loved kissing you. I guess we could have had something more but you were not willing to give love a chance. I have looked back to those times these years since and I have found it difficult to forget about you or our times together. I went to a few places today: CVS Food Lion Circle K A book from Amazon was delivered. A free can of sparkling water was delivered today. Tomorrow will be a busy day. https://www.patreon.com/jason29171⁠⁠ ⁠http...

Sunday, April 21, 2024 I'm Autistic. Memories I have not thought of in years will sometimes return to me while having a sensory experience like smelling a familiar smell connected to that memory. What would be my ideal date for the first date? Something related to my special interests but not somewhere with a large crowd or a noisy environment. I need to hear his voice. I need to see him. I need to get to know him. Priest. Preacher. Pastor. Etc. All of them are the same to me. They're made-up titles people give themselves thinking that a title makes them superior to anyone. I like the word cock. Dick is a nice word. Penis sounds like you are a doctor. I like the feel of a nice cock in my hands. I hate the mess so I swallow. I'm finding myself living in the past moments, times gone but never forgotten, when I once spent time with others. He arrived and I was ready. On my bed, he was above me and in me. In my mind, I recall the feeling of his cock sliding into me, I...

Saturday, April 20, 2024 It is hot. I have exercised some today and I plan to exercise a few times throughout the rest of the day. I need help finding a first career and help finding a first boyfriend. I'm Autistic. I want a boyfriend. The problem is meeting someone. How do I meet people so that I can find my first boyfriend? We started chatting online then met in person, we met once and then I never heard from you. I wanted to know you, I wanted more than one time, I wanted more than one night together. You were inside of me, I was inside of you but neither one knew the other. We were strangers coming together, one night together. I wrapped my legs around you, you inside of me, I wanted more of your body. Liked your body. I can remember your body inside of my body. I wanted more than one night but one night was all we ever had. We were strangers meeting together, your body inside of my body and my body inside of your body, and we departed as strangers never to see the other afterw...

Friday, April 19, 2024 Do you ever hear a song in your head? A song that you heard before somewhere? When does night officially become morning? Does a day begin with the night or is it morning after midnight? I'm Autistic. There may have been guys interested in me but I misread their intentions. Street light outside my window, waiting for you to arrive, I pace the space beside my bed I imagine our conversation in my head. You arrive and I am excited to see you. On my bed we find our clothes tossed aside, legs wrapped around you I find you inside of me, I like the feeling of your cock inside of me. One night shared, cared too much for you though it was the only time we ever would meet. I've been home all day today. It is supposed to rain for the next few days. I plan to go somewhere on Monday. I am considering going to one place tomorrow. It is hot. I keep dreaming of my life if I had a boyfriend. I want to catch up on watching Chucky. I know I watched the first season. ...