F Jason Whitaker

 Tuesday, April 25, 2023 Be in a moment, live it again, time in the mind to find something left behind. He sat upon the rock, shoreline, birds floating nearby in the breeze as tourists squeezed into empty spots on the sand nearby. Today he listens to the sounds of the beach. He hears the sounds of nature fighting against the sounds of people crowding together but separately. A world divided between two opposing forces. I went to what I thought was an interview for a job on Zoom but it was nothing more than a group Zoom with an old man asking people to work for free. You are required to have your own car and insurance and work for free: work for commission alone. It was a waste of time. I am considering what I could do today and what I should do today. I feel like going back to bed and forgetting everything... ⁠https://www.patreon.com/jason29171⁠ https://jason29171.substack.com/ ⁠http://Fjasonwhitakerwriter.com ⁠ ⁠https://medium.com/@jason29171⁠ ⁠https://www.wattpad.c...

 Monday, April 24, 2023 Puffy clouds Blue sky, blooming flowers, towering trees of green leaves dancing in a gentle breeze, a path through fields of grass and over hills of trees bees and birds, sounds of nature all around, leave the pavement far behind to remind yourself of a simpler time. He sat in the car watching the traffic. He watched each vehicle heading in different directions. The weather was a pattern he watched, changing from a sunny day to a stormy night. He watched uncertainly of what to do now that he had come to this place on the road. He parked in a vacant lot knowing that no one would notice his car. He watched as people went about their lives. He came here with all his belongings packed in his small car ready to decide the direction his life would take. He came here to decide which direction to travel and toward which destination he would go and live to find a new life in a new place. He came to the fork in the...

 Sunday, April 23, 2023 Fading memories of times we once shared, I cared for you too deeply and when we went our different ways I lingered too long on the things you once said. I often think about the past. It's strange how your mind edits the past to make you miss certain aspects of times gone while forgetting the negative aspects of those moments. I once thought I had friends. Now, looking back, I realize that I have never had friends. I miss going out on my bike and riding just to ride, without needing to go somewhere. These days I find it difficult to get myself to go anywhere. I could ride my bike most days for at least an hour. I could go riding places I once rode. I hope that I will be able to get myself to want to do anything... ⁠https://www.patreon.com/jason29171⁠ https://jason29171.substack.com/ ⁠http://Fjasonwhitakerwriter.com ⁠ ⁠https://medium.com/@jason29171⁠ ⁠https://www.wattpad.com/user/FJasonWhitaker⁠...

Saturday, April 22, 2023 Here I am, Same me as before never keeping score, scars from these years tears for the things lost on my way to become the me now. I sit here this Saturday afternoon considering what to do today. I could work on my writing. I could actually write. I need to write but I am hesitant with my writing. I want to do more with my writing. I want to be a writer as a career. I could edit videos using the videos and photos that I have access to and the many sounds and other editing resources that I have on my HDD. I sit here trying to not overthink everything and not become overwhelmed. I have so much pressure on me to do something great... ⁠https://www.patreon.com/jason29171⁠ https://jason29171.substack.com/ ⁠http://Fjasonwhitakerwriter.com ⁠ ⁠https://medium.com/@jason29171⁠ ⁠https://www.wattpad.com/user/FJasonWhitaker⁠ ⁠https://www.fjasonphoto.com/⁠ ⁠https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/ls/Z6P9332V8VAW?ref_=wl_share⁠ ⁠Another D...

 Friday, April 21, 2023 Alone A stone in a steam everything flowing around, flowing against, rough edges worn smooth by the rushing of time. Another day and I am stressing over what to do today. I need to become productive and utilize my time better. I have been catching up on shows on Disney + including a woman doctor in Hawaii. I am considering what I could do today... ⁠https://www.patreon.com/jason29171⁠ https://jason29171.substack.com/ ⁠http://Fjasonwhitakerwriter.com ⁠ ⁠https://medium.com/@jason29171⁠ ⁠https://www.wattpad.com/user/FJasonWhitaker⁠ ⁠https://www.fjasonphoto.com/⁠ ⁠https://www.amazon.com/hz/wishlist/ls/Z6P9332V8VAW?ref_=wl_share⁠ ⁠Another Day, Another Podcast⁠ ⁠https://www.buymeacoffee.com/jason29171⁠ ⁠https://www.patreon.com/jason29171⁠ ⁠https://www.linkedin.com/in/jason-whitaker-6234b87⁠ ⁠https://gurushots.com/jasonwhitaker29171/photos⁠ ⁠https://youtube.com/@jason29171⁠ video editing: ⁠https://youtu.be/-zz6ZQO...