Saturday, January 25, 2025

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 Saturday, January 25, 2025







 Saturday, January 25, 2025







Saturday. I feel the solitude. My entire life I've known I'm different. I thought I was getting help from the SCDDSN but I don't think they will...



I'm uncertain about my future and what the future holds for me. I'm anxious about everything. I want my first boyfriend soon. I need my first career. I need my first home. I don't know how anyone finds these things.



I'm no longer going to meet older me from the internet. I always felt weird after the old men I met would suck my....



When I lived in California I did meet a few guys my age but I have not had a boyfriend.



I posted on LinkedIn asking for someone to hire me. I know from the lack of a response that I'm not getting hired due to discrimination.


I have plans starting Wednesday...

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