F Jason Whitaker

I am trying to decide what I will do the rest of the week. I am trying decide whether or not I will attend 2 book clubs at the library this week (tomorrow evening and Thursday evening). I need to focus on writing more.

I need to sit down and make plans. I need to focus on the things I can do and what I need to do..

I am working on a new writing project. I hope this will the first of many...

Last night I started writing something new... Today I did some housecleaning which I will continue tomorrow...

Friday... Tomorrow is the last day of another week... Saw the movie: "Baby Driver" yesterday. It was great.

Tired... I want to go to bed... I might go and read in bed....

I need to find actors and crew for video projects. I also need to find locations and someone that will be a part of the crew that could provide me transportation for me and the equipment I have to the locations. I need to figure out if iMovie will work in regards to editing these projects since my Creative Suite Subscription expired. I do not have money to renew and even if I did have the funds I am uncertain whether or not it would be best to spend the money on Creative Suite or something else like production gear or photography gear. I would like to travel more and do vlogs and photography.  

Today was a busy day. I went to Whole Foods, Kroger, and Jersey Mikes. I was able to use several e-coupons at Kroger. One coupon did not deduct the full amount of the coupon.  I went to Whole Foods to redeem a $50 gift card I earned on DailyBreak.com I finally found what I wanted to purchase. I went to pay with the gift card. I was told that there was nothing on the card.  I called the help # on the card, while at the store, was told that I would be e-mailed a replacement gift card. I was told it would be 1 to 2 hours. I had to leave after waiting over an hour because I had a bus to catch to get home and not have to walk home. I was told that the card had been used in some state I've never been in May even though I have never used the card. So, today was a long and hot day.   While waiting on the bus a truck stopped in front of the bus stop. It was from a local fire department. The person handed out bottles of cold water to everyone at the bus stop. I might go into detail...

Chase dreams. Do not believe the lies. Forget what next, just focus on the now. Believe in your abilities because no one else will...

Sunday... I hope things will improve soon...

I look forward towards the future with hope and anticipation of what lies ahead...

No plans today. In the morning, tomorrow, there is a free community breakfast I might attend. I need to focus on things that I can do, the things I have been wanting to do, and not focus on the doubts...

I have stuff I can do like write and I hope to do more of that soon.  Despite the fact I live in a rural state, in the middle of nowhere, I have hope for a first career.

July 19, 2017 {Wednesday} Happy Wednesday!!!!

I am going to do some reading before going to bed. Today was good except having allergies... I am not certain of all that I am allergic to but some perfumes I am...

It was a long day and I still have not started a project I have decided to pursue.  I am tired. Allergies. Good Night.

Sunday. Time to organize my stuff and my time. I hope things will improve for me soon...

Tired. I plan on doing some reading in bed tonight. It's thundering.

Shall things improve for me? Shall I ever have a career? Shall I ever have a boyfriend? If you do not know already: I'm gay. Surprise not really.. If you don't know already then you have not been to my website or my social media, etc. I don't know about these titles though. It's possible that there, out there somewhere, is a woman that I will find attractive in the I want to marry and etc, kind of way but I doubt it.  Male? I guess. I do not desire to be labeled. What does being male mean? I do not identify with what some would consider male or female traits or characteristics.  I don't like generalizations. I am me. Why compare me with anyone else?

Another day almost over. I will spend tonight reading. I have a stack of books I am currently reading and another stack to read.

Wednesday... I need to get ready for Saturday.

I was planning to attend the book club at the library this evening but I do not think I will because it is suppose to rain this evening. I did not read the book. I attempted to read it but it was a very weird read. Chick-Fil-A has their "Cow Day" today but after last year's experience I have interest going. The food is good, overpriced, and the service can be good if you're lucky. Last year I had horrible service. Since then I am not a fan as I was before. My allergies have been horrible. I had strange dreams last night.

Monday. Again. My allergies have been an issue these past few days. It's hot so I am not going too many places.

Things with me are not simple, nothing about me is simple. I have never dated. Never had a boyfriend. I am single and mostly I like being single? No, it's not that I like being single. I would like to have a boyfriend and someday marry but for now... I don't know. I have profiles on dating sites but it's not like there are that many guys I'm attracted to.... So many profiles are fake.

I am tired. Allergies. I feel drained. I might attempt to write some today. I have some stuff I could do today if I feel up to it...

I had stuff today. Had a long walk in the heat to do so. Is today really Friday? Not that it matters. Most days are the same for me....

I applied to a couple of jobs this morning including one that I would like to have.  I don't know what to do. Looking back, at the schools I attended, it was a waste of time and money. I studied film and video production, including screenwriting and television production but I have seen Linkedin profiles of so many people working in those industries that did not go to school for those things.  It's all about who knows you. Your training, experience, etc. have nothing to do with getting a job most of the time.

Tired. It was a hot day.  I wonder what I will do the rest of this year. I am thinking of what to do.  At the moment I am tired so I will end here....

I need to make a plan. Figure out a daily and weekly schedule. I need to write more. I need to do more video and photography. I need to travel, somehow. I need ways to make money. So much to do....

Monday. Today was hot. It is suppose to rain tonight.

I had some weird dreams. In one dream I thought about someone I went to school with that I have not thought about since I don't know when. I do not remember her name. I am not great with names. In another dream I thought of a series of dreams I had once and how I have not thought about them in so long. Dreams are strange. At the moment I do more in my dreams than awake. I do not do much of anything while awake. I want to change this...

Saturday. I need to decide what I will do today. I might organize my stuff. I have been wanting to do this for months but not sure how to organize it...