F Jason Whitaker

Sunday, March 08, 2026 It's Sunday evening. The morning the time changed. I feel uncertain. I'm anxious about everything. I went to first Baptist Greenville SC with Gary. We went by MacDonald first. Afterwards we went to Panera Bread. I like my Sunday school at first Baptist. I watched christ chapel of the valley on Facebook when I arrived back at the facility. I only ate part of my sandwich at lunch so I had the rest of the sandwich and the full salad at dinner. I'm considering staying in Greenville at least for now instead of moving directly back to California. I don't think I can handle the stress of finding housing. I know that I would prefer a place with public transportation and other resources but South Carolina might have to be my home for at least a while longer. My roommate's noise making is difficult to deal with because it makes it difficult to sleep. He's an old man and doesn't seem to care that he's making so much noise. I'm planning on...

Thursday, March 05, 2026 I walked at least 15 miles yesterday so I'm taking it easy today. I plan on doing some exercise today in the room here. I have something I want to write and submit to something but the due date is the end of March. I'm going to work on it today. I feel tired. I'm overwhelmed and physically tired but my mind is active. I'm thinking about so many things. I need to focus on my writing but focusing on anything is difficult. I'm uncertain about decisions that I will have to make. I'm overwhelmed by the uncertainty of everything.

Wednesday, March 04, 2026 Today has been a long day. I left here this morning to have breakfast at Eggs up Grill. I had a free breakfast but it was almost lunch when I arrived. The food and service was great. My toe is still hurting. I walked at least 15 miles today. I went to circle k, twice to one location and once to another location, obtaining 2 free circle k chocolate bars and buying a TY cat at the other location. I went to Publix and I bought a few items on sale. I went to Taco Bell for 3 free items: one of the potatoes with cheese and two Baja Blast frozen beverages. I also went to Spinx for a free energy drink I won on the app and I gave it to a staff member at the facility I'm currently living. I'm tired but not sure if I could sleep. I returned the Xbox game I had borrowed from the library. I'm considering walking somewhere tomorrow...

  Tuesday, March 03, 2026 Today was definitely different than I had imagined last night. My friend Gary picked me up and took me to The Cheesecake factory. He bought me lunch for my birthday which isn't until the 15th. He bought me 2: Xbox One games for my birthday. We went by Walmart on the way to The Cheesecake factory. He took me by my bank afterwards. Today was a good day. Tomorrow I'm walking to get a free breakfast and other things. I need to get myself to focus and work on my writing. I need to get some writing completed. I'm planning to walk other places this month.

Monday, March 02, 2026 A new month. My birthday is this month, the 15th. I'm tired of being in this facility. I'm tired of waiting for the unknown. I miss the way things were before. I mean before she became too sick to do anything. I miss walking to places with her. It's still weird not being home. I wonder what life, daily life, will be like once I get my benefits. I had considered life after her before but I had no idea what it would be like and I definitely never imagined what has happened would ever happen. At lunch today I was the only person not given something to drink. I didn't eat the food. I'm trapped here in the middle of nowhere in South Carolina waiting for the uncertain. I have no idea what's happening next. I don't know if I can believe anything anyone tells me.

Thursday, February 26, 2026 It's another day here in this facility. It's been raining for most of the day. My person from able sc met with me today. I'm anxious about being here and I'm anxious about we what's next. I knew that change was coming soon when I was home a year ago. I knew that she wouldn't be around too much longer but I had the naive thought that she would live a few more years. I miss her more than I could describe. Each day I'm reminded of her passing. Each day I find it difficult to believe that she's gone and I'm here alone. I feel strange being here. I feel out of place. I'm planning to walk somewhere tomorrow...

Wednesday, February 25, 2026 Wednesday. Tomorrow my person with Able sc is coming here. I hope this meeting is productive. I'm anxious about what's going to happen next. I'm worried about where I'll live and what my life will be like. Things would be different if my things and a large amount of money hadn't been stolen from me. I'm not going anywhere tomorrow but I plan on going somewhere Friday. I hurt my foot today.

Tuesday, February 24, 2026 Tuesday February 24 My guardian ad litem came by today. I've been here all day. I'm considering walking somewhere later this week. I should know about my benefits soon. My hope is that I am approved for benefits and not have to go through the appeals process. I haven't been able to focus on anything recently. I need to work on my writing and other things. My birthday is March 15th. I'm looking forward to having my own place. I don't know where I'll end up living. I'll need help with obtaining things I'll need since everything I had was stolen from me...

Friday, February 20, 2026 Tomorrow I'm going to the Spartanburg planetarium with Gary. We also have a dinner at FBC Greenville tomorrow evening. Sunday we're going to church @fbc Greenville. Afterwards we're going to lunch with the guest speaker for the LGBTQ support group Sunday evening. My hope is that I'll have my benefits soon and have a place to live. I went somewhere this morning and I walked over 10 miles today. My person with Able sc is coming here next week. I hope to discuss my options for where I plan on living...

Thursday, February 19, 2026 I found out today that I have a mutant gene that caused my Autism and other things. I stayed here all day. I have not been feeling well. I'm anxious and depressed. I have no idea what DSS is doing. I have no idea why it's taking so long for them to approve my benefits. I need my benefits and I need to move on and forward with my life. I'm uncertain about what I'm doing tomorrow. Saturday and Sunday I have plans...

Wednesday, February 18, 2026 Wednesday. I went to CVS and Food Lion this morning. I also went and played bingo. I didn't win. I had 2 donuts and a cup of coffee. I came back to the facility and I slept off and on the rest of the day. I'm tired of being in DSS custody. I'm tired of being stuck here in the middle of nowhere with almost nothing to do...

Tuesday, February 17, 2026 I'm going to go play bingo tomorrow morning. I'm miserable here. I borrowed the Mafia Xbox game from the library the last time I was there and I've been playing it. I have no idea what else I'm doing tomorrow. Saturday Gary is picking me up and I'll return here Sunday night. I miss my life from before...

Monday, February 16, 2026 It's another Monday. I'm still stuck in this place. I walked to a few places today: Tropical smoothie Cafe, Circle k, and Taco Bell. I have a senior roommate that goes to bed before 8 and makes so much noise in bed including kicking and hitting the wall. He also smells horrible because he never showers. He makes the room stink. I have no one to and I'm on my own here. I can go walk to nearby places but there's nothing to walk to nearby except fast food places etc... My caseworkers don't tell me anything. They almost never respond when I text them. I think they're ok planning to leave me in this place. They need to place me in either an apartment alone or at least a room to myself.  I don't know why I'm in a room with an old man. I'm going to play bingo Wednesday morning. My anxiety is too much. I'm looking forward to Saturday. My birthday is March 15th and I'm certain I'll not receive any gifts like usual. How mu...

Sunday, February 15, 2026 It's been awhile since I've posted on here. My goal is to begin posting each day on a daily basis. I may not always have much to say. I don't know what to write in regards to what I've been doing because I don't know how far back to go... I'm still here in DSS custody waiting for my benefits. I'm in a facility in Wellford SC. I found a ride to church today. It rained most of the day. I was at my friend's house when it snowed. I've stayed at his house a couple of times so far and I'm staying there again this weekend. I hate being here in the middle of nowhere. I don't know what to think about my situation. My DSS caseworker is no longer my caseworker and her supervisor is now my caseworker. She just told me they're understaffed so I'm thinking I'm going to be forgotten about. I've been told so many things while I've been in DSS custody that I don't know what to believe. I plan to go somewhere t...

Wednesday, January 28, 2026 It's hot in the room I'm living in while I'm in DSS custody waiting for my benefits.  I went to a few places today. I'm going somewhere this weekend. It's like a very bad dream these times. I'm stuck here in this facility. I need things to change soon...

Thursday, January 22, 2025 I'm still here in this facility in the middle of nowhere, in DSS custody waiting for my benefits, and I'm tired of being in a facility in DSS custody. There's supposed to be winter weather here this weekend. My Xbox series x arrived today. I need things to get better soon...