F Jason Whitaker

  Sunday, April 06, 2025 I went to an Autism event and Queer Game Night yesterday.  This evening I'm planning to attend a dinner. I thought that if I keep getting out and going to things that I would meet someone who would become my first boyfriend.  I received some strange messages on Insta from someone appearing to be a MAGMA cult member. I'm uncertain what else I'll do today. I have plans for this week. I need to work on some things this week.

I need a boyfriend. I need a guy who is about my height. He needs to be close to my size. I've never had a boyfriend and I want one now.

  Saturday, April 05, 2025 It's Saturday and I have plans for today. I'm going to a program at 2 and then I will go to the Queer Game Night. I'm planning on going to the dinner tomorrow. I have no idea what else I'm doing next week. I often look back on the times when I would meet guys from the internet. Many of these guys were older men who'd suck my dick. There were some who were my age. There were a few who I was attracted to and I'd been open to a relationship with if I had thought that a relationship was an option. I have never had a boyfriend. I want my first boyfriend. There are some things I need to get done but it's just overwhelming. I don't know what I'm doing. I just drift through each day hoping that tomorrow will be better.

  Friday, April 04, 2025 I went to Lowes this morning for a free reward through the rewards program. I received a small Lowes bucket with a dog plush and 2 pins. I went to Aldis tu utilize the gift card that I won. I bought 2 sets of food storage containers. I'm going to 2 places tomorrow. I hope that the weather will be nice tomorrow and Sunday. I'm expecting a Squishmallow and an old cartoon on DVD to be delivered today. It's warm and I'm trying to work towards organizing my stuff...

I've lost hours of sleep To the random thoughts, Awake at 3AM, Wandering through My memory, Wondering if Things could ever have Been different for us.

  Thursday, August 03, 2025 I was considering going to a program at the library in my community this morning but I was too tired from yesterday. I'm planning to go somewhere tomorrow morning. Saturday is the Queer Game Night and another program somewhere else. Sunday is the dinner but I don't know if I'll be able to go because of the weather. I'm tired. I need to go through my stuff and organize it and downsize.  I'm planning to have a monthly zine soon. I have things to do but I'm too tired to do much of anything today...

  Wednesday April 02, 2025 It's early on a Wednesday morning. I've completed my daily sweepstakes and instant win games for the day including entry into the HGTV giveaway for a house in Texas. I'm awake early today because I'm going to the Autism program I attended last year. I'm up early because I have a ride to the event. I know that certain changes in my life are going to happen but I don't know how to deal with them. I don't think anyone reads my blogs. I want my first boyfriend soon but I don't see that happening. I want and need to find my first career but I'd have better odds of winning the lottery without buying a lottery ticket. I'm here in bed wondering what today will be like. I'm wondering what will happen next...

  Tuesday April 01, 2025 I had breakfast at Dunkin today. I'll post on my social videos of what I had including a free cold brew. I'm feeling tired. Tomorrow is going to be a long day with the Autism program. I will leave early in the morning. Saturday is the Queer Game Night.