F Jason Whitaker

  Sunday, January 29, 2023 Empty room, soon filled with memories, times gone, things done once before when things were different but somewhat the same, a room I once called home.

 Sunday, January 29, 2023 I am going somewhere today. I have no idea what else I will do today...

 Saturday, January 28, 2023 I flip through pages of a book, in a nook, in my house where I find myself alone again with these worlds imagined brought to life by my imagination from the pages I am now flipping through eager to discover what is on the next page...

 Saturday, January 28, 2023 I am going to a few places today. When I come home I am considering editing some videos with free stock videos that I have. I do not know what else I will do today...

  Friday, January 27, 2023 Alone in my bedroom, rain falling outside, thunder shaking everything I sit and dream of...

 Friday, January 27, 2023 I woke up early but I remained in bed until late. I do not know what I will do today. I have no specific plans at the moment... I am feeling tired and depressed and anxious. I need to get a few more things done and then figure out what to do for the rest of the day.

  Thursday, January 26, 2023 The beat of my heart, rain upon the ground, beams of light through curtains hanging tight, peace of mind in pieces of time, rewind the dial to when I worried less and wrote more, things have been changed by...

  Thursday, January 26, 2023 I went to a few places today. I did one thing on my computer when I returned for which I will receive a gift card. My sinuses have been bothering me today since I left home. I don't feel like doing much tonight.

 Wednesday, January 25, 2023 https://www.patreon.com/jason29171

Wednesday, January 25, 2023 Rainy day. I will stay home today. The snow globe that I won is somewhere. It was shipped via UPS and USPS is scheduled to deliver it. The UPS site states that it arrived here, in West Columbia, several days ago but it has not yet been delivered. I am catching up on shows that I watch on Hulu. I am planning to get up earlier each day and go to bed earlier each day...  

 Tuesday, January 24, 2023 The day begins it reminds me of when I did not know so much, naive of so many things, opening my eyes to all of the possibilities.

 Tuesday, January 24, 2023 I do not feel great. My stomach is feeling uneasy. I do not know if I will go anywhere today. I downloaded all of the assets from wipe-boxx.com this morning. I plan to utilize these assets and the other assets I have purchased or received for free to create content. I will also utilize my photography and video in creating content. I am considering a daily routine, for days that I have nothing planned, which would consist of the various things that I could do at home. I will spend a certain amount of time on each task so that I get more done during the day. I hope this will allow me to become more productive.

  Monday, January 23, 2023 I fell into the chasm of too much thinking about everything, found nothing but sorrow along the way, alone I have been seeking a comfort no one can give. I feel the empty of another day of solitude, should I do anything or nothing at all the results still feel the same...

 Monday, January 23, 2023 I went to one place today. I'm planning to go to a few places before the end of the month. I am downloading the rest of the wipeboxx.com content today...

 Sunday, January 22, 2023 Dirt road, fields and trees, bees and weeds, blue sky and one puffy white cloud, another road in the middle of nowhere, he walks alone searching for a place to call home.

 Sunday, January 22, 2023 I am uncertain. I keep considering what I should do and I hesitate to do anything because I do not believe that anything I do will be successful. Someone like me is not allowed to be successful. Someone like me is not wanted. I am excluded. I hope to finish downloading there's of the content from wipe-boxx.com today.

 Saturday, January 21, 2023 I remember the times, I was there when I tried, life was difficult, waves of life crashing into my face, not just life but you closing another door in my face as you keep anyone not like you from doing more than barely surviving this race to death you sit back and watch us on. Life could be simple but life will never be fair, I stare at the wall waiting for things to change but no matter what we do you will always be in charge.

  Saturday, January 21, 2023 I was up last night until morning playing Watchdogs: Legion. I am somewhat awake now and considering going back to bed... I have no idea what I am doing. I go day to day without any plans for the future. I am uncertain about everything. I am uncertain about my future.

 Saturday, January 21, 2023 My life is a mystery to almost anyone that would ever ask about my story, I never wanted to be the villain and I never wanted to be the hero, I'm still considering the jokes I made years ago, and I'm still trying to find my own direction as my story continues to unfold. The stories never told, times gone, may forever be silent... You gave me nothing but isolation. I spent the night dreaming I was anyone but the person I'd been all of my life.

  Friday, January 20, 2023 The fire crackling nearby, the darkness beyond, and sounds of nature all around, as he sits on a log observing life around him. Another camping trip. Woods and a clearing. Tents are set up and arranged in a half circle. The wooden box...

 Friday, January 20, 2023 Another day. I feel uncertain about everything. I feel alone and forgotten. I want to go back to bed and remain there for many days. I do not know what I will do today...

 Thursday, January 19, 2023 He stands before the mirror watching his figure, uncertain of himself, he wonders what others see when they look in his direction. The walk to school, alone, is a time he contemplates the entire day ahead. He imagines conversations and interactions with his fellow students. He imagines what life would be like if they accepted him.

 Thursday, January 19, 2023 I had strange dreams again. I woke up several times but I remained in bed until later. I have been downloading content from Motion Array Sounds and wipeboxx.com I hope to finish downloading the rest of the Wipe Boxx content in the next couple of days. I have no idea what I will do for the rest of the day...

 Wednesday, January 18, 2023 Early morning, bus stop, street corner waiting while cars pass by, he stands watching the distant hill for the bus to appear in the early morning light. Going somewhere, anywhere, is better than remaining home all day.

 Wednesday, January 18, 2023 I woke up late today. I have been downloading the video wipes from wipeboxx.com I'm catching up on shows that I watch on Hulu. I have no idea what else I will do today...

 Tuesday, January 17, 2023 A solitary tree in a field, a long road between places with not much in between, memories of travels and times had on a long stretch of pavement in the middle of nowhere...

 Tuesday, January 17, 2023 I have no idea what I will do today. I do not feel like doing anything...

  Monday, January 16, 2023 A radio plays, the cat stays asleep at the foot of the bed, a book opened near the head of the bed on a table with a glass of water as the day becomes night outside and inside music transforms the small bedroom into a place of imagination. He sits up in bed, hearing the words, the rhythm flowing over and through him like electricity flowing causing memories to flash in his mind like a year in review video.

 Monday, January 16, 2023 I am not feeling great at the moment. My sinuses are making me congested after riding to a couple of places today. Cold and heat bother my sinuses, among other things. I went to two places and I am downloading the video wipes from wipeboxx.com

 Sunday, January 15, 2023 Big yards, lonely streets, overcast and neatly arranged homes on winding roads. A dog barking, a bird's song, the echo of children laughing, not time for gathering flowers as he passes through another town and another rural area of a landscape full of forgotten places. Captive by the scenery, green fields, and evergreens, scenes like paintings everywhere. He could stare out his window every day to discover a new way of looking at the same view he's seen countless days...

 Sunday, January 15, 2023 I am not going anywhere today. I need to go somewhere tomorrow. I need a plan. I need direction. I need help but I will not receive any help. I have ideas but not all of the resources I need to complete these goals...

  Saturday, January 14, 2023 Cold air greets him as he opens the front door, leaving the place he's called home for many years now, to walk away from his current life for a new one miles away. He walks away not knowing what tomorrow will bring. The window to his former bedroom now empty of curtains reveals the room sans his presence. Bare walls and no furniture. He sold everything he could not carry with him. His bags were packed for the journey westward. A bus of strangers. A long ride on several buses. Waiting in cities he'll never see again, waiting for the next bus, he grows tired of the traveling but soon he'll be in his new home.

 Saturday, January 14, 2023 I woke up earlier today. I went to the place... I was originally planning to go somewhere after eating but I am not feeling well. I will consider going tomorrow. I do not know what I will do today. I am downloading the Video Wipes from wipe-boxx.com I am considering editing a video utilizing a bunch of the items I have purchased from Bustboxx, Animationboxx, Musicboxx, Projectboxx, Textureboxx, and Wipeboxx.

 Friday, January 13, 2023 Coffee is lukewarm, music in the background playing random songs, people coming in and out, cold air rushing in with each new arrival, and with each new departure, the buses can be seen arriving and departing from...

Friday, January 13, 2023 I was up earlier today than I have been recent because I had a thing to do this morning that took an hour and I will receive 15$ in compensation.

Thursday, January 12, 2023 Fog rolls across the green field, and the sun begins to shine through distant trees, as he walks down the small road toward the house he recently inherited. A house is hidden from the main road by trees and bushes. A house he hopes to become his home.

 Thursday, January 12, 2023 I woke up very late today. I have been working on a few things while doing my daily tasks such as checking my email and other things. I ordered a photo book utilizing the code from T-Mobile Tuesday to get it shipped for almost free. I plan to create and order the second photo book tonight, we have two lines so we had 2 codes. I do not know what else I will do today...

 Wednesday, January 11, 2023 The shadows of clouds move across the greens fields, the wind blows through trees fresh with bright green leaves, and he stands on a hillside watching the rain clouds gather and pass by him in shapes he finds  resemble things in his everyday life. Rain falls in the distance as thunder breaks the silence of another Spring afternoon spent watching time drift like clouds. He watches the birds fly through the places between, fields of birds gathering and parting as one cluster, birds traveling through this place far from the sounds of civilization.

 Wednesday, January 11, 2023 I was up until early morning playing, and streaming, the first Uncharted game. I plan to keep playing and streaming various games each day. I plan to begin creating and posting content on a daily basis. I see applying to job postings as a waste of time. No one is ever going to hire someone like me. I am considering what to do for the rest of the day...

 Tuesday, January 10, 2023 The sand between his toes, hot, and the sun in his eyes as he walks down the crowded beach toward where his friend went fishing. He is bored. Bored of sitting and watching the people bob up and down on the waves. Bored of watching children pile sand high in poorly designed castles soon swept to sea by the next wave. He walks to the unknown spot to watch for a moment the tension in the line, the anticipation, as another fish escapes the temptation of fake bait. He stands in silence, fishing is like praying, words spoken softly while waiting for something to happen. He paces, this is not the excitement he desires, hot sand and small pools of water, the intensity of the Summer Sun, and he decides to walk further along the beach with no purpose aside from being anywhere but here...

Tuesday, January 10, 2023 I keep having strange dreams. I am uncertain. I do not know what to do and whatever I do will have to be done by myself, alone...

Monday, January 09, 2023 Tall grass sways as cars pass ignorant of the house between the trees. A small road hidden between fields of green grass flowed with the wind. He stands upon the wooden porch, watching the day drift slowly where time has no measuring, a place stuck in a time when things were less modern. He drove his small car to the place left to time. A place without time. He came here to escape his life for the solitude of the past left alone by the present. Ignored by developers and travelers alike except him, he first saw this house as a child from the backseat of a bigger car. A family car. He paces as another car races down the road toward the freeway. This road but a means to travel between two freeways that cut through the land like a barrier built to divide while providing some with a way to escape...  

 Monday, January 09, 2023 I had strange dreams. A dream about moving into, and living in a building that has seen better days. The railing for the stairs inside the building was missing in places. It was one of several strange dreams. I had some second thoughts about writing and submitting to a place I found while applying to job openings. I am worried that it will be a waste of time. I do not know if I will download the content I have been downloading today or not. I am considering taking the day off. I have no idea what I will do today...

 Sunday, January 08, 2023 Fog hides all but the immediate. Inside the small cafe, he sits. He watches what he cannot see. He sees what no one else in this seldom-visited restaurant on a barely traveled road in the middle of fields and fields of crops ready for harvest. Those eyes peered through the curtain of mist, a fog hanging, as in a stage ready for the prelude to conclude. These creatures of time. Waiting for their moment to come out and consume the weary traveler lost. He hears their soft voices talking, plotting, waiting in the night.

 Sunday, January 08, 2023 I was up late last night catching up on the Doom patrol episodes I had not watched. I had strange dreams, dreams I cannot recall too much detail of, and was out of bed late into the day. I am finding it difficult to want to do anything because I am having trouble seeing the point of doing anything when I have no chance of not failing...

Saturday, January 07, 2023 Light through a broken window, smells of dust and mold everywhere, door ajar as he stands alone in a house abandoned long ago. Snow drifts in with a gentle, cold, breeze, he's been here before but he keeps coming back again and again. He does not know what draws him inside a place time has left behind...

 Saturday, January 07, 2023 I went to bed late. I was in bed for a few hours streaming Cities Skyline from my PS5 before I went to sleep. I woke up late today. I have been downloading the video wipes from BusyBoxx. I plan to work on the writing that I had planned to work on last night but was not feeling well last night...

  Friday, January 06, 2023 I woke up to another morning, failed to remember my agenda for the day it's becoming, summed up my life in a dream about sociology, chronologically arranged events in my life I recall as a blur of seconds, I get out of bed already ready to return beneath the covers to dream once more of things real and things imagined...

 Friday, January 06, 2023 I was up late last night streaming to Youtube. I woke up late today after having very strange dreams. I am downloading the content from BusyBoxx, wipe-boxx.com I plan to work on some writing today...