F Jason Whitaker

Last day of June. Tomorrow is July. I wonder what I will do tomorrow. I have stuff to do tonight.

Thursday. Soon it will be July.

Wednesday. What shall I do tomorrow?

Tuesday. I am working towards re-arranging my daily schedule. Picked up some DVDs from the library. I hope to get back to reading every night. I also hope to get back to using exercise DVDs everyday. I hope to write each day as well. I have goals that I need to keep in mind each day.

Monday. I am deciding what I will do this week. Tuesday evening there's a program at the library I might attend. Wednesday I am going to a free community lunch and Starbucks for a free beverage. What else? Maybe I will organize my stuff and see what I can get rid of... I want to be ready to move if I ever do get a job offer.

What shall I do today? I want to do more today than usual.  What shall I do this week?  I have not decided yet. I hope to do more with my time.

Saturday. I hope that I will be able to write more soon.

New day. I need a new start. I refresher. Maybe I need to travel, but how? Maybe I need to go out and do some photography and video but what of?

I have not done anything special today. I wonder what I will do the rest of this year. Maybe I will have a job. I mean I was surprised when I was offered the job with All Hands Volunteers last year. It was not the perfect job but it had its moments. One thing I found is that working for a non-profit has challenges. I was hopeful that it would result in more than less than a month of work.

Watching "Supernatural" on DVD, from library. Classic TV.

How do you defy the odds and become your dreams? Despite the obstacles. Despite your own fears. How do you overcome? I hope to overcome.

Monday... nothing new here.

Sunday. I have no plans this week. I have a stack of library books to read. I hope to do more writing this week. I hope to play video games more. What shall I do now? I don't know what I shall do today. Tomorrow I will go to Kmart to use my points but that's nothing special.

I think I will make some changes to my photography site soon. I need to do some new photography. I may add more video to the site. I hope to make these changes next week.

I write in my blogs. I see that people read them. Not many people. I wonder what they think of what I have written. I try to write something different in all 3 of my blogs. It's not easy thinking of stuff to write for 3 blogs everyday.

Thursday. I want to write but I feel tired. Late night playing The Division. I want to travel but I do not have the funds. I do not know what to do. I keep submitting to jobs but no interviews. Will I ever have a career?

June 14, 2017

A new day. Time to decide what I will do today. Tomorrow I am expecting a package. It's something I won. Tomorrow is a book group, club at the library. I have not read the book. I forgot to pick it up. I may end up going just so I do not forget to pick up the book for next month.

There is a program at the library this evening and I am debating about whether or not to go. I am expecting a package this week. It will be a prize I won. It will be a box of goodies. I was sent a box for cats by mistake. My cat, Tiger, has enjoyed receiving this box of goodies.

I wonder, sometimes, how things would have turned out if I had made other choices in life. If I had not done something or if I had done something differently. It's easy to look back, not so easy to look forward, but maybe if you look back some you can see forward better? I have made mistakes, I have been taken advantage of, I have missed opportunities, but what's the point in recounting these things if I do not have a plan to not repeat them?

I ate the cherry Jolly Ranchers flavored Pop Tarts this morning. I received a package, a sample, for free through the mail. They were good, better than expected, and I think I will buy these once I find them in a store. I have received coupons for free tea. I like tea.

Hello. Saturday. Last day of the week!!! What shall I do next week?  What shall I do the rest of today? ?

Friday!!! Days of the week have no meaning for me. Each day is not much different than the one before it or the one after it. I am here in the middle of nowhere hopeful about the future....

Job hunting: waste of time. I am writing something everyday. I have created a new song. Find it on my website . I have been shooting video of my cat, Tiger. I have posted them to my youtube .

Wednesday. It has been a busy day. I hope I am not forgetting something.

Follow the crowd. Be like everyone else. The American Way! What is is? What does that phrase mean? Maybe the generations before mine understand that phrase: "The American Way"? I don't. Does it mean North American? The United States of America?  Why does there have to be one way? Looking at history: women vs. men, men work and women stay home. What nonsense, yet some still think that that way is how things should be.... Why should things be based upon our perceived gender? Why should our skin color matter at all? The American Way. Looking at history "The American Way" is nothing more than an ideology  that needs to end or at least change.  What if "The American Way" was to do for others and be respectful of the things that make us different. The things that make us different, and all of us are different, are not things that should divide us but they should unite us. Unite us in our diversity. Celebrate diversity.

I sit here on this Monday wondering what shall I do today, what shall I do this week, what shall I do the rest of this month, and what shall I do the rest of this year. I do not apply to jobs as often because it is a waste of time. No one will eve hire me. I do not know the right people or the right people do not know me. I am writing some but not as much as I should. I do some photography but no one is going to pay me. Not sure what I do but I still have hope and faith...

Going to college is a waste of time. It's overrated and overpriced.  Internships and other unpaid labor is slavery. Companies save money by having interns do the work.  You become in debt so that you have the training needed to find work, but no one will hire you. You are forced to buy health insurance, not health care, while health care goes unreformed. Changes cannot take place while those capable of making those changes are on the payroll of those that benefit from things remaining the way they are... The American way? Is there such a thing? The American dream? Was that a marketing campaign?

Tired. Keeping this short. Today was the last day to another week. I hope to focus even more on my writing...

Friday. I might go out to get my free donuts but it's hot. Not sure what I will do today, but I have plans tomorrow.

I posted a large amount of short videos yesterday to my Youtube. I am posting another one this morning of my cat, Tiger, and I hope to continues to post more videos on a daily basis. I will begin to do more videos. Unedited videos. Please follow me on Youtube, I mean subscribe.