F Jason Whitaker

Tuesday, May 07, 2024 I have no plans for today. I am considering going somewhere tomorrow. I plan to go somewhere on Friday morning. I feel like I have been waiting for some unknown thing to occur. What makes a joke a great joke? What makes you laugh? I often wonder why people believe that hating others makes them superior to those that they judge. I sometimes forget things like I forgot something yesterday. I feel tired. I want to do so many things. I want to do nothing. I want to go to bed. Somewhere, someday, long ago I lived a life different from the one I live now. Days busy nights out, meeting people never seeing them again. I went with the flow and it brought me here to the middle of nowhere. I wanted so much when I started out but so much was against me I lost everything I had. I miss those times I wonder where all of those people are now.  https://www.patreon.com/jason29171⁠⁠ ⁠http://swellcast.com/jason29171⁠ Poems and Photography: ⁠https://a.co/d/bFYc1kO⁠ Words, Fl

Monday, May 06, 2024 I would like to consider continuing my education to increase my odds of finding a first career but I need help to fund my education. A boyfriend. One thing I would like to have soon is a boyfriend. A boy to love and be loved by. I will never support a hate group. People seem confused. They support groups that oppress and murder people like me. Certain things in life are a mystery to me. One of them is finding a boyfriend. I want a cute fit boy to spend my nights with... I had strange dreams. I woke up a little later. I have exercised and have completed most of the things from my daily routine. I need a boyfriend. I need friends. I hate being alone all the time. Something on my mind  brings moments gone back again like I never left those places behind. I wrapped my legs around him, his cock deep inside of me, I remember nothing but him sliding in and out of me. I live that moment again, I dream of having a moment like that again but these day

Sunday, May 05, 2024 I often wonder if I am attractive enough for anyone. I wonder if anyone would be attracted to my body. I wonder if my cock is big enough. I wonder if I am good enough. I'm Genderfluid. I'm nonbinary. I'm Bigender. I Genderqueer. I'm not a boy or a girl. I'm a boy and I'm a girl.  I wasted so many years of my life on false religion. I know the Truth now. I know the lies I was told for so many years. I will not be fooled again. I'm versatile. I do not play the girl role in a relationship. I do not play the boy in a relationship. I have never had a boyfriend. I want a boyfriend. I need a boyfriend to ride my cock. I need a boyfriend so I can ride his cock. I have found a few Transmen attractive, but I'm still figuring out what that means for me. I'm not attracted to all guys. I want a boyfriend. At the moment, my goal is to find a cute, fit, cis boy. I have not done much today. I do not know what I will do toda

Saturday, May 04, 2024 What movie is your favorite movie to watch again? What was the first movie you watched in a movie theater? What songs do you associate with certain movies or time periods? Do you ever cancel plans because you are told there will be thunderstorms on a certain day but it doesn't rain the entire day? I was planning to go to the free comic book day event today but thought there would be thunderstorms. I do not think it has rained all day. I have no plans tomorrow. I woke up from strange dreams again, spent the daydreaming of a better life while looking back on those years I once lived. He was someone I wanted to be around, I loved his smile. We kissed all the time. I was in love but I'm unsure how he felt about me. I asked him to be my boyfriend and he said no. We did so many things together that I thought there was more to us. Looking back I find myself missing him. I wish things could have been different. I once fell in love with a boy who did not

Friday, May 03, 2024 I had a strange dream this morning. A few of the actors from Modern Family were in my dream. I was thinking about some of my story ideas this morning and thought of creating video games based on these stories. When I was younger I had a blog where I would share bible verses and my thoughts daily. I had a following on that blog. I have no plans to do that again. Why is cottage cheese called cottage cheese? Is it really cheese? It doesn't look or taste like cheese. I hate the texture and flavor of cottage cheese. I had a few strange dreams. I woke up late. I mean that I woke up a few times before getting out of bed. I was tired. I do not know what I will do today or tomorrow. I have not looked at next week yet. There was a time years ago, when I was him and he rose. I tasted his buds and licked his stem sucked on his flower until his nectar  flowed into me. https://www.patreon.com/jason29171⁠⁠ ⁠http://swellcast.com/jason29171⁠ Poems and Photography: ⁠ht

Thursday, May 02, 2024 I want a boyfriend. I have no idea where or how to find a boyfriend. I want a career. I have no interest in working in a store. I need help finding a career appropriate for me and my skills, education, and training. Religion is not the most important thing in my life. At one time it was one of the most important things in my life but now that I know the truth it is something I only think about occasionally. I want a boyfriend. I keep thinking about what he would look like. How do people meet each other? I'm autistic with ADHD and PTSD, how am I ever going to find a boyfriend?

Wednesday, May 01, 2024 I went to a couple of places today. I walked over 8 miles today. I feel tired. I plan to go to a couple of places tomorrow. Why do people continue to use sayings from centuries ago? Does anyone know what they mean? Instead of being religious, find your purpose in this life. What were you born to become? I hope to begin my life soon. I walked miles just to be back where I started. I rode a bus for days to return years later on another bus. I leave but I always seem to return to where it all started. https://www.patreon.com/jason29171⁠⁠ ⁠http://swellcast.com/jason29171⁠ Poems and Photography: ⁠https://a.co/d/bFYc1kO⁠ Words, Floating: Poetry And Photography: ⁠https://a.co/d/5htw2lz⁠ ⁠https://jason29171.substack.com/⁠ ⁠⁠http://Fjasonwhitakerwriter.com ⁠⁠ ⁠⁠https://medium.com/@jason29171⁠⁠ https://www.viewbug.com/member/jason29171 https://neobook.org/jason29171/ ⁠⁠https://www.wattpad.com/user/FJasonWhitaker⁠⁠ ⁠https://publicfast.com?deal=jason